Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Let me just say..


I'm Kassie.
I'm super opinionated.
I say the wrong things, all the time.
I'm a mess, inside and out.
I don't look like Barbie.
Most of my friends are way prettier than me.
I have self-confidence most of the time, but struggle with it.
I dream of my dad walking me down the aisle with my best friends by my side.
I dream of the day where guys don't always think about sex.
I'm obsessed with myself, but not in a conceited way.
I ramble, often.
I like the way alcohol tastes, and I really hardly ever get drunk any more.
Being 21 is freaking amazing.
Being on semi-consistent speaking terms with one of my dearest and long time friends, is a great feeling. :)
Christmas time is seriously the best time of year.
Well, minus the 70 degree weather.
Texas, get your act together.
I adore my mom and dad.
I seriously adore, Valorie too.
Dear Josh Groban, marry me? Please?
I love Glee, and hate Bieber.
I cry at EVERY wedding.
Oh Holy Night, is amazing.
I struggle in college, and it might take me 6 years to graduate.
I'm okay with that.
I want to work in sports marketing/promotions.
Or in NCAA compliance.
My family are sports nuts.
I'm in charge of planning a HUGE event for my dad on May 21.
I'm kind of freaking out because it'll be May before you know it!
Sometimes, I like to talk in 3rd person.
I'm really strange like that.
I like Math.
I talk too fast according to my family.
I love working at the hotel.
I miss my old boss sometimes.
Mexican food is kinda my obsession.
Also, margaritas.
I send and received roughly 10,000 texts a month...yes, it's possible.
I love music.
Quotes, another one of my obsessions.
I'm really not as loud as most people think.
I do know everyone in this town, so it feels.
I'm going to the Cotton Bowl, because I have an amazing father.
I have a crush on a guy that I kinda met on Twitter, but haven't met in real life.
3 years ago this week, I finished high school.
I'm a total clutz.
My dad votes on the Heisman, AP Top 25 for football and women's basketball, he's amazing!
I really love Jesus! :)
I love my life for the most part.
Also, I have the best people around me in my life!

I love you all :)
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Sunday, December 12, 2010

Oh man.

It's definitely December 12th already.

Where the heck has time gone? Tonight was our church's Christmas program and I swore I was just listening to our July 4th one. It really boggles my mind that 2010 is almost over.

11 days ago I turned 21, and it's so weird to me. I feel all of the sudden, grown up. Weird how that works, isn't it?

Last night a childhood friend got married, she's simply 2 years older than me. It's weird, because I've grown up practically with her and her awesome family! Crazy. We had a great time last night at the reception, everyone was having a great time dancing and celebrating an amazing marriage! Congrats Zach and Lauren, we love you!!

Back to being 21, it's weird that I can go out and order a margarita, or drink a glass of wine with my mom and her friends. It hasn't really set in yet because it's so new, but I'm sure it'll get old real fast. I'm already slightly annoyed of getting carded because obviously if I have the guts to order a drink, I'm 21.

Found out my family is going up for the Cotton Bowl!! I'm so excited :) Dad's getting me and some friends tickets, and I'm so pumped. I get to watch the Ags BTHO LSU!! :)

Breakaway put out a live album and it's simply phenomenal, definitely go buy it if you don't have it! My favorite song on it is "Radiate." Such a powerful awesome song!

So my friend issue is kinda better, I don't know still where we stand. I guess it happens, it's happening to 2 of my other friends right now. I guess people just grow apart, but last night really got me that I really want this person in my wedding, because they've definitely been there through it all. We'll see, I guess. I just want to sit down and talk to this person, but they don't seem too interested in doing that, and I'm trying to give them the benefit of the doubt but it's so hard when you feel like you're trying 200% harder than them to just see what's up and show you care about them. I don't know, it brings me to tears.

God is good, and I'm just going to trust that He has a plan behind all this.

Hope you are having a great last month of 2010!

Have a fantastic week guys, and BTHO Finals for some of you.

Love you,


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Monday, November 22, 2010

Change.


I feel like I could use a million hugs right now. I just look at myself in the mirror and I'm not happy at all. It's just like who really cares?

The people you thought would be around forever, well they just aren't around anymore. So who do you turn to? God? Yeah sure, that sounds great, if only it were that easy.

Family? It's like nothing you do sometimes makes them happy, but you just gotta keep trying.

So what am I left with? This blog, at least I can write exactly how I feel. I just feel like I need a big change, and I can't put my finger on what exactly it is.

On a lighter note, new blog layout and my birthday is in 8 days :)

Have a very Happy Thanksgiving! I'm thankful for you for reading my ramblings!

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Thursday, November 11, 2010

The Name.

The Name By Aaron Ivey

There is a name that moves
A name so wonderful
With power to rend the Heavens
And peace to still the storms

His name is Jesus, Jesus
The Lamb of God, the Lord Most High
He is Jesus
There is a name that loves
A name so wonderful
The One that loves the sinner
And heals the broken heart

His name is Jesus, Jesus
The Lamb of God, the Lord Most High
He is Jesus

All glory and fame be unto the One who reigns
Yes You reign
All heaven and earth rejoice at the sound
Of Your name, of Your name

There is a name that saves
A name so wonderful
His blood has sealed our pardon
Through the triumph of the cross

All glory and fame be unto the One who reigns
Yes You reign
All heaven and earth rejoice at the sound
Of Your name, of Your name


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Monday, November 8, 2010

A few things.

This weekend was incredible.

I got paid, got an iPhone 4 (I therefore, feel cool.), saw the Ags BTHO O-Who?, and celebrated at Northgate with thousands of other people. Today I went to church, and then lunch with my family, then napped all day! Fabulous weekend, for sure.

I love that the Ags are ranked now, and beat number 8 OU. We just need to win out! Man we looked good yesterday!

I'm still struggling with what's going on with a friend. I just want everything to be okay, but there's a point where I just have surrender it and let God do his thing.

I became friends again with someone this weekend, after texting them. That was cool, he's definitely a blessing in my life.

I love love love love love my iPhone 4. Like man, greatest phone ever!

TobyMac and Skillet is in a week and a half ish, you should go buy tickets! ticketservant.com

Gig 'Em!
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Oh man.

Do you ever have people take things the wrong way? And then it completely ruins a relationship/friendship?

Yeah, me too.

But it's got me thinking, when has this happened to me, in the fact where I've taken something wrong and not given the person the time or day to discuss it with me? Probably super often.

I'm becoming a lot more conscience of things I say and do, because of this kinda stuff. It's not worth losing friends over. It's not worth it. It's all petty.

I hate when people are mad at me, and it gets in trouble sometimes because I keep trying to make things right, because it hurts me to have someone mad at me, when I genuinely feel bad for what I did.

But then the realistic side of me thinks, "Why do you keep trying Kassie? They clearly don't care, and aren't going to give you the time of day."

But then the nonrealistic side of me thinks, "Maybe they'll come around, and listen to you. Maybe they'll wanna work things out if not for the good, at least to be civil."

Oh man.

I guess maybe this is one big lesson that I'm learning little things from. Like this lesson.

But then the depressed side of me thinks, "What if I die tomorrow, would they be at my funeral?" "If I got in a bad wreck, would they even care?"

I hate thinking those thoughts, but it's true. Would they?

I genuinely feel bad for how someone took some things, but at the time it was how I was feeling. I wish things were different, I wish you were one of my best friends again. But I completely understand we're in two different cities, and different lives.

Granted, I've screwed up. My life isn't perfect, I make mistakes, and I probably am not living the way I should be. I depended on you entirely too much before, I'm learning to depend on myself and God, and it's hard, but it's a work in progress daily. But this is my sincere hope and prayer is that we can at least be semi-friends again. I cherish friendships, because I don't have many of them. You're friendship meant the world to me, because you knew so much about me and helped me through so much. We've been to hell and back and survived, and I know that we can be friends, and I think our friendship would be so much stronger right now. I think you're absolutely one of the best people I know. Best morals, and standards of any of my friends. You've changed the world, whether you know it or not. I sincerely appreciate you have being in my life, and if you never want to be there again, I understand.

I also, apologize. For anything negative you might have heard me said. I never meant things to be taken as they were. I never thought you were a bad person, or anything of the liking. I was at a loss for words with how events happened. I honestly don't know why we stopped talking, it just kind of happened.

I hope you can find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me and give me another shot at being a friend.

I hope you are doing well, and will at least think about what I said.

I do love you and care about you greatly.

Blessings,
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Sunday, October 24, 2010

Taylor Swift

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I’d go back to December turn around and make it all right
I’d go back to December turn around and change my own mind
I’d go back to December all the time


I downloaded some of her leaked copies, and they are amazing. Her new album will be phenomenal. She's matured a lot! I relate to most of her songs these days..

Fight Another Day!


I saw Addison Road in concert a few weeks ago with Tenth Avenue North (AMAZING btw) and I heard this song, and it's sooo good!

Fight Another Day: Addison Road

Your broken dreams,

Your crazy schemes,

They always let you down.

The things we chase,

A hopeless race,

You're breathless, off the ground.

From soaring highs to crash-and-dies,

A peace yet to be found.


But you could spend a lifetime running.

You could spend a lifetime running.


And do you feel the fire when the flame gets hot?

Are you living every day like it's the last you got?

Will you step aside when it all falls down,

And watch it burn away?


Have a little faith when the walls cave in,

Pray for strength to fly against the wind.

Will you walk away when the fire gets hot,

Or fight another

Another day, yeah.

Another day, yeah.


Your fractured heart,

Your disregard,

It leaves you frozen still.

A slow withdrawal

From it all

That keeps you unfulfilled.


will you spend a lifetime running?

Cause you could spend a lifetime running!


And do you feel the fire when the flame gets hot?

Are you living every day like it's the last you got?

Will you step aside when it all falls down,

And watch it burn away?

Have a little faith when the walls cave in,

Pray for strength to fly against the wind.

Will you walk away when the fire gets hot,

Or fight another

Another day, yeah.

Another day, yeah.


Even when your heart's been broken,

He'll be there with arms wide open.

Be strong and his love will lead you to fight another day!


keep your head to the sun cause it's shining

keep your head to the sky cause it's shining



I absolutely love the words and meaning in this song. It's kind of been my season song right now, because only through Christ can I fight another day, and it's nice to know that he'll be there more than anyone!

I really have come to love music so much lately. It's such an amazing outlet for me.

Going to Waco tomorrow, to their version of Breakaway to do some TobyMac promotions!

Just updated my Taylor Swift song collection..I'm obsessed. :)


Mannn. This weekend: AMAZING!!

Rock the Republic, a 3 day music fest in Downtown Bryan, was amazing. I had so much fun!


How are you lovelies?


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Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Forgive.

Tonight was a very interesting night.

I did some things, and ended up going to the Student Senate meeting for the last hour. When I got there, I had a heavy heart. I didn't know why. Then I saw an old friend who is still really bitter and unforgiving towards me over something that happened awhile ago, that didn't really involve him, but that's not the point. I have apologized, over and over, and he just doesn't want to forgive me. He is apparently a Christian, but not forgiving someone when they ask for it, just isn't very Christian-like. I'm not saying I'm perfect, because I've failed at this a lot. But I feel it's something I want to strive to work on.

In Matthew 6 it talks about how we need to forgive others..
"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins..."

Ouch.

Basically if we don't forgive others, God won't forgive us.

There's a few people I need to ask forgiveness from, and I hope they give me it. But all we can do is apologize and ask for it right?

I really need the Lord's guidance on what to do in a few situations, and I'm so impatient. I just want to fix everything on my own, but I know I can't. I'm finally becoming okay with that.

Tonight on the drive home, I broke down and am trusting in God with a friendship or two that I value so much.

All things work together for HIS good, not mine. I fail to realize that so often.

I had a really good conversation with Camille today, and this whole KSBJ promotions thing has been such a blessing. SUCH A BLESSING. More so than I ever expected it to be. I praise him for his goodness!

I'm struggling with some things, and I'm just trusting in him..

Pray for me? Also, pray that my ankle get healed...(I fell off my bed, yes you read right. You can laugh, it's sprained pretty bad...)

Thank you for being a blessing in my life if you didn't know you are.

Me and heyzus are going to have some bff time tonight.. :)

Grace and peace,

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Tuesday, October 12, 2010

200!!!

This is my 200th post.

I don't know how to celebrate.

But I have a question.

What's something, or a few things that make you so mad you want to punch something?

For me it's people who don't use their blinkers when they switch lanes, then get all pissy at you for not letting them in/cutting them off. REALLY?!

Or people at a restaurant that don't know what they want when they've been looking at the menu for an hour. Seriously?

When I have a bad hair day. It just doesn't work out how it's supposed to. UGH!

Your turn~

Love ya!
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Saturday, October 9, 2010

They just flow...

Tears that is.

I find myself an emotional wreck today. Why? Roadtripping like this brings back so many memories of good times within a good friendship.

It's weird to see how different everyone is these days. Where everyone is in life. I've ran into a few people I went to HS with in the last week, and it's just weird. We're all in such drastically different places. Somedays I miss high school. The simplicity, the knowing that there's really no body to impress after your first day of your freshman year because everyone has known you your whole life.

Now I feel like we're all in this game to prove to each other that we're doing better than the other person. Everyone always asks me when I see someone from high school, "How's school? How's life? You working?"

It's like if you say school is terrible, they'll be like ha. If you say good, they'll be like oh me too. Or if you say I'm not in school right now they'll be like awesome, she sucks at life; but of course not like that to your face.

Sometimes you see those people and you put on the fake smile, the fake school's going great, the fake life is fabulous because you don't want them to judge you...

...if only they knew...

It's like we all have these expectations.

Frankly, I'm tired of them. So what if I'm not in school, so what if I go to Northgate, so what if I'm not friends with someone anymore.

Who gives a damn? It's my life, right?

But then, sometimes, I miss us all pretty much being equal, sophomore year of high school we just floated, we weren't worrying about colleges, but we were worrying about beating Bryan.

Things are so different, and I can't decide in what way it's good and what way it's bad.

Oh high school, what a curse you are on our lives.

How have you changed? Do you look back and ask yourself who the hell was that in HS? Or do you look back and miss that person?

Sometimes, I miss the Kassie I was in high school. The pretty Kassie, the non-drinking Kassie, the one who pretty much wasn't a loner.

oh life.

Hope you are having a good weekend!

Blessings from DFW,
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Thursday, September 30, 2010

It's going to be alright...


There's points in life where you just have to stop and remember why you're here. Remember that this world is oh, so temporary.

I just think of Carrie Underwood's song, and it just reminds me that there's so much more to this world than football games, friends even, and school, and work. There's so much more.

But why do we not live like there's more?

Last night I went to Lifegroup, aka bible study, and we went out to just talk to people and share the gospel. I was freaking nervous. So nervous that I couldn't do it. That is SO not me. I'm the girl who can talk to a freaking wall, but talking to a complete stranger about God? Me? I couldn't do it.

I was driving home weeping because I felt ashamed that I couldn't do it.

Recently, my friend Matt put a video blog up... It really got me thinking..


Obviously that's the video.

Later that night my mom and I had a really good conversation. I learned a lot, about myself, her and our relationship. It was good. Real good.

I'm learning that sometimes things don't go as planned, but in the end it's probably a good thing. I'm learning a lot about myself, my friends, my family and my life.

God is good.

Things will happen how they are supposed to happen.

I hope you're doing well!

Love ya!

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Monday, September 20, 2010

Pick up all the pieces..

Editors note: I haven't blogged consistently in awhile, working 4ish jobs is getting the best of me. I'm going to start blogging again, I love to write...love love love!

Time to pick up all the pieces and move on...time for a new beginning...a new life...

Losing friends sucks. Hardcore.

Friends come and go, and I'm learning that maybe they were in my life for the amount of time necessary to teach me and show me things, and then move on. It's so hard, to stop caring about someone you once called your best friend. Someone you swore would be the maid of honor in your wedding. It's just like one day we woke up and aren't friends anymore, and it breaks my heart.

I can't really talk about our friendship without tearing up, it hurts so much. I don't like losing friends, especially ones I once trusted my life with. But I know the Lord is teaching me through this.

I went to church for the first time on Sunday in awhile. A girl about my age spoke and said something that has really stuck with me...

In order to change, you have to have the desire to change....
Ouch. Thanks God.

At Breakaway last week, and at church this week we talked about idols...it's like God's telling me something there too....

I just need to pick up all these pieces and put them together...

The happy things going on in my life:

On Thursday KSBJ gave me tickets to see Tenth Avenue North, Addison Road, and Matt Maher in Houston. I'M STOKED!! There's like 5 of us going, it's going to be so fun! I'm also heading up promotions down here in CS for the TobyMac and Skillet concert!!! I'm so excited!! I had so much fun with Casting Crowns, and I love doing promotions!

On a completely lighter note, I put a friendship together tonight. It's a good feeling, but I'm praying it's what the Lord desires. He's probably my best guy friend, and means the world to me, and I care about him deeply, he's a great guy. I thank God for his friendship and for putting this friendship back together. To Him be the glory! :)

Recently, I came across and old song of mine in iTunes by Matthew West and it fits my season right now, perfectly!!

You are Everything..Matthew West...

Breathe again
Feeling all this life within
Every single beat of my heart
I’m the one with big mistakes
Big regrets and bigger breaks
Than I ever care to confess
Oh but, You’re the one who looks at me
And sees what I was meant to be
More than just a beautiful mess

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
I love you guys
Blessings,
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there is a name that saves. a name so wonderful. his blood has sealed our pardon through the triumph of the cross.
all glory and fame be unto the one who reigns. yes you reign. all heaven and earth rejoice at the sound of your name, your name!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

4 years this week.


It'll be 4 years on Wednesday since Ed died. I miss him so much.

Here's my essay on that night... we played Westlake on Friday, Consol won. It brought back so many memories.

I MISS YOU ED.
Love you!!



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Monday, August 30, 2010

Measure of Beauty

Lindsey Kane is a song writer, who was a student teacher at my HS my junior or sophomore year. She went to A&M and she leads worship now.

She did a video back in the day and I came across it tonight and it touched my heart, again.

Measure of Beauty:
(Sorry this is the arabic captioned one, the real one is being stupid.)
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Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Crazy Love

This week has sucked up until yesterday.

I got home from the hotel and slept for 7 hours. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I woke up feeling a little better and I was looking through text messages to figure out what to do that night. I came across a text from the beautiful Sarah Postma, and she invited me to a potluck dinner with lifegroup. I just felt this urgency to go. It wasn't by coincidence that she invited me and I went.

I go and we just start fellowshipping and everyone is talking to me asking me how I was, and I wasn't okay. We start talking and stuff and I just confess sins to the group and I felt so much better. I felt freedom! Then 2 girls prayed over me and we talked and I saw the Lord wrap His arms around me and tell me everything will be okay, I've got you. It was the most amazing feeling ever!

I'm doing so much better, it's amazing how God does things.

I bought the book Crazy Love last night and started reading it, and it's really good. I'm just in awe of God!!

God is so faithful, I'm so thankful!

Love you guys!
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Saturday, August 14, 2010

It seems

Just like yesterday you were playing basketball with Chris when I drove home.

Just like yesterday your family was living 2 houses away.

Just like yesterday that you left this Earth.

I can't believe we're coming upon the 4 year mark of Ed's passing. It's crazy to think it's been 4 years since that terrible night.

I know for a fact Ed is watching over us and smiling.

Every time I look up and see it's the 15th, I just am reminded again of how precious life is. God doesn't promise us tomorrow. We seem invincible, but we will be called home one day too you know.

Life is precious. precious. precious.

Ed was an amazing person, one of my heroes in life. I wish I got 5 more minutes with him. I will one day!

Love and miss you Ed. :)
See you soon boy,
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Friday, August 13, 2010

It's sad..

When someone you used to call your best friend, is someone you barely know. It hurts actually.

I mean okay, it's not the end of the world, but when it's someone you swore was going to be in your wedding, and be the girlfriend you ditch your husband for the weekend to see, it's not okay.

The one person who knows you almost as well as you do.

THIS SUCKS.

I thought I'd be okay with it, but I'm not.

Everyone's like "y'all will work it out." I'm afraid this time, we're really becoming two totally different people.

I guess it's time for me to realize that the people you'd thought would be around forever, won't be and that life does go on. I just gotta trust the man upstairs.

It's so hard to care about someone who you can tell doesn't care about you...

It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours, and how now, you can barely even look at them.

..such truth.


Vegas in September, I'm so pumped!!
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Nope.

I'm so tired of living in the past, I feel like it's all I do.

Guess it's time to move on? It's going to hurt like hell, but I can't love someone who has doubts about everything, and doesn't want people to know he loves me. NO. I'm tired of that bullshit.

I'm putting my effing foot down, enough is enough.

Time to forget about a boy who doesn't care about me.

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Monday, August 9, 2010

Man.

Time is flying.

Seriously.

4 years ago I was 16 years old. 2-a-days for HS football has just started, my junior year of HS was starting, I had my own car, Ed was alive, and playing basketball down the street.

Today, I am 20 years old, my sister is a trainer and her 2-a-days just started, I'm a junior in College, and I kinda have my own car, but Ed isn't here.

Just weird. Weird to think he's not here, but glad to know he's in a much better place.

I see his parents and brother about once or twice a year since they moved up north. Chris has gotten so tall, and so grown up. It's CRAZY.

Ed is an amazing person, and I miss him every day! I still want to drive home and see his car there, but alas it's not. But every day it's getting a little easier.

I am so grateful to have got the chance to know him, and live close to him.

Can't believe the 4 year mark is around the corner.

RIP Ed King
12/22/1987-09/15/2006

I miss you and love you so much Ed

Have a blessed Tuesday folks.
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IT'S HERE!! :D

Football season is here.

I LOVE FOOTBALL SEASON.

I'm probably one of the few girls who can keep up in a football conversation, and knows what's going on. It's kind of intimidating, honestly. But it's my life, and I like it.

This makes me all giddy inside, I love football season. The smell of the freshly cut grass, the sound of tackles being made, helmets hitting each other, the sound of 80,000 Aggies yelling for our team. It's beautiful music.

What's your favorite time of the year? Mine is for sure fall! I LOVE football season, and the fact my birthday is in the fall too, helps!

Btw, Vegas in December for my birthday, I need a group to go, who's down?! :)

BTHO SFA!! :)

Gig 'Em Ags!
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Sunday, August 8, 2010

Who is she?

I look in the mirror, and I don't know who I'm looking at.

This girl that the has conformed to this world, this girl living behind a mask, this girl no one truly knows but maybe 3 people.

This girl who drinks her problems away, this girl who tries to find satisfaction in boys, this girl that I don't even know anymore.

Why? Why did I let the world consume who I am?

Frankly, I feel like it's the only thing I'm good at. I'm good at falling into the worldly things. I'm not good at living this good, Christian life. But I know for a fact, the ONLY time I'm truly happy and satisfied is when my relationship with Christ is on the right path, and healthy. I know for a fact that's when I'm happiest.

Recently, someone I care about so much and love to death, really caught my eye, I go through this cycle all the time, it's time to end it once and for all. I know for a fact that I control my future, and right now it's leading down the wrong path. I have to stop this cycle, and I think I'm slowly getting there, but it's so hard. I know Jesus tells us we have to lose everything, and we do, for real. I need to find new friends, maybe that means like being a loner for a long time, but ya know I think for the first time in my life, I'd be okay with that.

I'm tired of pleasing this world, and the people in it. There's ONE person I need to please, and that's my Heavenly Father, that's it.

I'm going to change my life starting now, it's 4AM and I'm going to get up for church in 4 hours, and start diving into the word, and start living my life full of Him.

HE IS ALL I NEED.

Pray for me, will you?

Starting today, a new Kassie will be made, one in Christ, and one in his likeness.

I love you guys,
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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

If You Really Knew Me..

You'd know I don't have my life together, or even close to being figured out.

MTV finally has created a very powerful show. "If You Really Knew Me."
ifyoureallyknewme.mtv.com

The show is about Challenge Day and the show changed me somehow.

It's a powerful show, and I encourage you to watch it. If you aren't crying, you need to watch it again.

It's an amazing show.

Thanks for doing something right, MTV.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

I'm okay?

I've made several life altering decisions this week.

For one-I'm taking the fall off from school to have a semester of self-discovery. I know that sounds ridiculous, but honestly I need it. I have no idea what I want to do anymore. I'm constantly changing my mind. I want to get back in tune with myself, and just catch up with life.

Secondly, if I go back to school I don't know that it'll be at TAMU. I'm thinking of going to SHSU and getting my marketing degree, but alas I don't know what I want to do. So after I figure that out, I'll be able to know so much more.

Thirdly, someone I used to be close with, well we're friends but not like we used to. And I'm okay with this. I hate losing friends, but I'm starting to realize we're all going our separate ways in life. Crazy, isn't it?

A semester off from school, for the first time in like 14 years? Yes, please. I'll be working out, working a lot, and going to church. I'm rather excited.

So do me a favor? Pray for me for this semester, because I really want this semester to change who I am.

How are you?

Btw, Cancun was amazing!! I want to go back so bad!!

Love you guys,
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Friday, July 2, 2010

Time...

I look at the date today and it's July 2nd, 2010.

Wow.

Half-way through another year, and it blows my mind. I think the days are going by faster, but I know that's a dumb thought because there's only 24 hours in a day no matter how you slice it.

I really wish I could start writing down everything I do every day and see how much time I waste, it's probably a lot.

This morning, for some odd reason the Lord has just put the world on my heart. I don't know how to explain it. I guess because I had to get a new Facebook, and I saw someone that had blocked me because of a feud and I just messaged him and I don't know the Lord got me thinking.

Why do we fight with people? Why do we bicker? Why can't we just love each other like we're called to. Sure, sarcasm is funny but sometimes it can really hurt people, and I've witnessed it, and probably done it to someone.

I just really have this deep passion in my heart for everyone to get along, I know that's strange. But it's true. Why do we have political parties? Why can't everyone work to make our country better, make people's living situations better?

I just need to stop wasting my time with pettiness, and stuff and just love people and show them the Love of Christ. Talking about someone, being at odds with other Christians, just isn't of the Lord.

Man, God is good.

I'll close with this song that I love!

You Said
You said, "Ask and you will receive, whatever you need."
You said, "Pray and I'll hear from Heaven,
and I'll heal your land."

You said Your glory will fill the earth
like water the sea.
You said, "Lift up your eyes;
the harvest is here, the kingdom is near."

You said, "Ask and I'll give the nations to you."
oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart.

Distant shores and the islands will see your light as it rises on us.

Praying for you,
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Saturday, June 26, 2010

This is where I explain

This blog is going to my explanation as to why I've been taking a random hiatus from blogging.

One simple word:

WORK.

I've been working so much lately, and when I'm not working I'm sleeping. And when I'm not doing either of those two things, I'm checking the tropical disturbance in the Caribbean because in 14 days and 3 hours I'll be on a plane to CANCUN/Playa Del Carmen. Yes, Yes, you can be jealous.

I'm so excited to drink and lay on the beach with my family and good friend Ann-Marie! Life is good.

I love working for the Bombers, looove it!!

Life is fabulous basically, my cousin got engaged last night and I'm soooo freaking pumped!! I love him and his fiance is amazing!! Welcome to the crazy family Salem!! :)

Summer is flying by, like woah. Where has June gone? Or for that matter 2010??

Counting down the days until December. ;)

I hope you are doing well. This was my short and sweet catch-up on life.

How is your life?

Blessings,

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Thursday, June 3, 2010

Victory

Dream-Struggles-Victory.

That's how life is, seriously. You can't have a big dream, a small struggle and a huge victory.

As big as your dream is, is how big your struggle will be and that's how big your victory will be.

It really put my life in perspective because I know we think that having a big dream, doesn't mean we have to have a huge struggle. False.

It put a lot of things right for me because I never thought of this. We need to be embraced by those who love us the most during our struggle. I really like this analogy because now when I dream big that the struggle is going to be big too. It prepares you for what's to come. But the victory at the end will make all those things worth it.

It's been a rough day, but I know everything will work out how it's supposed to, and I have peace about that.

It's pouring in the BCS and it matches my mood.

This drama queen is out.

Blessings,
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Wednesday, June 2, 2010

The Letter that wasn't published..

**Let me say, I never usually repost things from emails, but this is good...**


ORANGE COUNTY (CALIFORNIA) NEWSPAPER-New Immigrants
This is a very good letter to the editor. This woman made some good
points..
For some reason, people have difficulty structuring their arguments when arguing against supporting the currently proposed immigration revisions. This lady made the argument pretty simple. NOT printed in the Orange County Paper...................

Newspapers simply won't publish letters to the editor which they either deem politically incorrect (read below) or which does not agree with the philosophy they're pushing on the public. This woman wrote a great letter to the editor that should have been published; but, with your help it will get published via cyberspace!

From:
"David LaBonte"
My wife, Rosemary, wrote a wonderful letter to the editor of the OC Register which, of course, was not printed. So, I decided to "print" it myself by sending it out on the Internet. Pass it along if you feel so inclined. Written in response to a series of letters to the editor in the Orange County Register:

Dear Editor:
So many letter writers have based their arguments on how this land is made up of immigrants. Ernie Lujan for one, suggests we should tear down the Statue of Liberty because the people now in question aren't being treated the same as those who passed through Ellis Island and other ports of entry.

Maybe we should turn to our history books and point out to people
like Mr. Lujan why today's American is not willing to accept
this new kind of immigrant any longer. Back in 1900 when
there was a rush from all areas of Europe to come to the
United States, people had to get off a ship and stand in a
long line in New York and be documented. Some would even get
down on their hands and knees and kiss the ground. They made
a pledge to uphold the laws and support their new country in
good and bad times. They made learning English a primary
rule in their new American households and some even changed
their names to blend in with their new home.

They had waved good bye to their birth place to give their
children a new life and did everything in their power to
help their children assimilate into one culture. Nothing was
handed to them. No free lunches, no welfare, no labor laws
to protect them. All they had were the skills and craftsmanship they had brought with them to trade for a future of prosperity.

Most of their children came of age when World War II broke out.
My father fought along side men whose parents had come
straight over from Germany , Italy , France and Japan . None
of these 1st generation Americans ever gave any thought
about what country their parents had come from. They were
Americans fighting Hitler, Mussolini and the Emperor of
Japan . They were defending the United States of America as
one people.

When we liberated France , no one in those villages were looking
for the French-American or the German American or the Irish
American. The people of France saw only Americans. And we
carried one flag that represented one country. Not one of
those immigrant sons would have thought about picking up
another country's flag and waving it to represent who they
were. It would have been a disgrace to their parents who had
sacrificed so much to be here. These immigrants truly knew
what it meant to be an American. They stirred the melting
pot into one red, white and blue bowl.

And here we are with a new kind of immigrant who wants the same
rights and privileges. Only they want to achieve it by
playing with a different set of rules, one that includes the
entitlement card and a guarantee of being faithful to their
mother country. I'm sorry, that's not what being an American
is all about. I believe that the immigrants who landed on
Ellis Island in the early 1900's deserve better than that
for all the toil, hard work and sacrifice in raising future
generations to create a land that has become a beacon for
those legally searching for a better life. I think they
would be appalled that they are being used as an example by
those waving foreign country flags.

And for that suggestion about taking down the Statue of Liberty , it happens to mean a lot to the citizens who are voting on
the immigration bill. I wouldn't start talking about
dismantling the United States just yet.

(signed)
Rosemary LaBonte

This is amazing.

Blessings,
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Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Sweeeeeeeeeet

Sweet Summertime is here!

Summertime means so many different things to everyone.

Concerts, barbecues, vacations, beach, old friends, new friends, baseball, snowcones.

Whatever it means to you, it's sweet.

Summertime for me is a new start, working a lot, a new boy, a new me, and my half-birthday which is today! :) 6 months til I'm legal!! :) :)

It's crazy how fast time is going, who would have thought that it's already JUNE 1st of 2010. What the heck! I went to my HS' 2010 graduation, and I felt so freaking out. Those kids who walked the stage on Friday night were SOPHOMORES when I graduated. SOPHOMORES! Now they are going to be in college...wow. I felt OLD at graduation!

I'm incredibly happy right now, because this weekend was amazing. I met someone great, and I'm hoping it goes well. :)

I start my other job this week I believe, and I'm excited about some baseball!!

So whatever summer means to you, I hope you enjoy it and live it to the fullest.

Blessings,
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Thursday, May 20, 2010

I've been MIA

I've been so busy with life, and starting working full-time I've neglected my blog.
Sad day.

I love my job because it's so flexible, and I get paid to do what I'm doing right now. LOVE MY LIFE! :)

I'm thinking about taking online classes in the fall because I want to work this fall a lot, so we shall see.

I'd take them through Lonestar, or maybe a college you have Suggestions through?

Kassie
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

You see..

I have this long note on my computer of quotes I've collected through the years, and I want to post them on here, but they aren't in order. Kind of go from sappy love quotes, to depressing quotes. But the reason they are on this list is because at one point or another I related perfectly to the quote.
Some are long, some or short, but all have amazing meaning.


It's super long but here they are:

i want you to make the effort

i want to be sought after, irresistably

i want to occupy your mind, as you do mine


People change,but so do you. Sometimes for the best, and sometimes for the worst. Bad things happen to everyone. You're not in it alone. People lie, and some people just dont care how you feel. Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you're in. Everything will be okay, eventually. There are always people in your life that just make your day,no matter the miles. Dont tell me its easy because its not- but it is worth it, I'd rather stay in touch with the people I love; than just drop it and forget about it. You forgive;but never forget, and you certanly dont forget about the ones you love. It doesnt work like that. Give it all you've got, and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you, have what you have, someone always has it worse than you, but that doesnt mean your pain doesn't count.


Memories hurt, the good ones the most.



they say time changes things

but you actually have to change them yourself

-andy warhol


hate is easy. love takes courage.


I don't know why I still get my hopes up every time I hear a car door slam. I don't knoow why I keep thinking you'll realize what you lost and come back again. Why do I still think that after all this time something is just going to click in your stupid, stubborn head. Every time i turn on my street I hope that you're waiting outside, in that stupid car with that silly smile. Everytime I check my phone I think there's going to be a text from you. I know full well even if you missed me, you wouldn't tell me. Keeping things in never helps anything, my dear.



One step at a time, there's no need to rush.

It's like learning to fly or falling in love.

It's gunna happen when it's supposed to happen.

We'll find the reasons why, one step at a time.


It's like once you've been hurt, You're so scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that every person you start to fall for, Is gonna break your heart


Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our lives.
If we were to go through life without any obstacles, we would be crippled.
We would not be as strong as we could have been.
Give every opportunity a chance; Leave no room for regrets.


At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
-Grey's Anatomy


I'm tired of people worrying about if they're going to hurt me or how I feel. I can handle my own fate. I've been heartbroken before & trust me, it’s not a fun road, but I don't think I'll ever be that heartbroken again. My theory is once your heart has been broken you will never feel that much pain again because once your heart breaks it will never be the same again. Your heart will heal, but there will always be missing pieces.

And that's how my heart is. It’s missing pieces.

Sure, I will get hurt, but I can handle it.


It's amazing how every girl has that one guy that could call
her up at 3 in the morning, and say 'Let's hang out, I'm
coming to get you.' And she'd put aside her show, her
excitement, her anger or hate for him. She'd only give
him 4 words. 'Give me 10 minutes


Anyone can be taken, at any time in our lives, but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before.

you know the beautiful thing about love? It’s so powerful. Nothing else can make people do the things that love can make them do. It’s the only emotion that can make people fight, and give their all to something or someone. It’s the only thing that can make people hold on, when they otherwise would have given up. Love is strong, it’s powerful and it’s rare. So when people find it, they marvel at the power of it. And they keep holding on because it’s the truest form of ecstasy. The world cannot survive without love. It’s the only thing that can get people to hold on anymore.


I can't be with someone who has doubts,
no matter how small they are,
I need someone who wants to be with me
as much as I want to be with them,
I don't want just part of your heart, I want all of it,
& you can't promise me that.


i'm not afraid to piss you off anymore.

you mean the world to me & you know

that, but in order for this to work we've

got to be honest with each other, no

matter what that means.



You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it's always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words, that matter


After all is said & done,
I still think you're amazing.
I still cherish every
moment I spent with you,
every smile you brought to my face.
I'll be forever thankful that
someone like you was brought into my life,
even if you had to be
taken away too soon.
You were my miracle.



I love you. Not maybe, not tomorrow, not someday,
right now. At this very moment. I realized something.
I need you, I trust you, I admire you. I want you.
And you can be wrong a lot of the time, and we
can fight, and get mad at each other, but nothing,
nothing in this world can change the fact that I love you.


the way you hold me.

the way you look at me.

the way you kiss me.

the way I care about you.

the way I worry about you.

all the times I think about you.

the way my knees shake when I see you.

the way I get the butterflies.

the way I look at you.

this has to be something more than liking someone.


20 years from now at our high school
reunion
everyone will be catching up with
old time friends, and we will be laughing about
something that happened yesterday


I really missed you tonight.
I miss talking to you.
Knowing that you get me.
And every time I talk to someone else.
It just reminds me of how much they don't.


i don't have friends; i have enemies.
so if you roll with me, you're considered
family.


Have you ever looked at a picture & seen a stranger in the background. It makes you wonder, how many

have pictures of you? How many moments of other peoples lives have we been in? Were we a part of someone’s life when their dream came true? Or were we there when their dreams died. Did we keep trying to get in, as if we were somehow destined to be there? Or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone’s life, & not even know it.


We get in the biggest fights
With the people we care about most
Because those are the relationships
We are willing to fight for.

There's just something about him that made
me like him. Ever since the day I met him
there was something about him that made
me go absolutley crazy for him.


life is like a box of crayons. most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you're really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. i fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though i've got a few missing. it's okay though, because i've got some more vibrant colors like periwinkle at my disposal. i have a bit of a problem though in that i can only meet the 8-color boxes. does anyone else have that problem? i mean there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation..so when i meet someone who's an 8-color box type, i'm like, "hey girl, magenta!" and she's like, "oh, you mean purple!" and she goes off on her purple thing, and i'm like, "no- i want magenta!"
++John Mayer


I believe I'm falling in love with you.
if you wanna run I understand. but you better get
a good head start, cause I'm coming after you.


A husband asks: Why do you weep & cry over a TV program
& the imaginary sadness of people you have never met?
Wife: For the same reason you scream & yell when a man
you don`t know makes a touchdown.

a friend would lend you an umbrella

in the rain, but a best friend would

take yours & scream "RUN, BITCH, RUN!!"


when people don't laugh at our jokes, i don't think of

it as a "you had to be there" thing; just more like a

"you have to be mentally retarded like us" kinda thing.


It's those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It's those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don't care. You don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Cause it's all we really need isn't it? Those kids next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.


I want a boy...who would shove ice cream in my face.

Who will wrestle with me who shows me off to his

friends and family. Who treats me with respect.

Who will call me at four in the morning, to tell me he can't stop

thinking about me. Who could break my heart but wouldn't dream of it.


okay, here it goes: i know you've moved on, & moved on for good, but there are things you don't know, things i don't show, things that i hide.. i know to you it seems like i didn't care, seems like i was never really there, but there was never once a day that you didn't cross my mind a million times. & believe me- if i could go back, i would. but things are different now. time caught up with us, & broke us apart. you've found someone else.. but that's not what bothers me.. what bothers me is that you left me, & that i left you.. with words unspoken & a story unread. words that are still trying to escape my heart.. & reach out to you, words that don't notice that time has past; words that still have meaning. what bothers me is that you didn't see the tears i cried, & you didn't know that i lied when i told you i was happy. what bothers me is that you still cross my mind a million times a day, even when i'm sleeping. i can still hear your voice telling me how much you love me, or how much you miss me, & that's really the only time i'm ever happy.. it's when i'm reminiscing about you & dreaming about us. but when reality hits me, it just kills me. but the thing that bothers me most, is that all of this could've been prevented if i had just said something, or done something & the only thing that doesn't bother me, is that i've learned a valuable lesson: you really don't know what you've got until it's gone.


it's ok to need each other.

it's what makes us strong.

it's what makes us human.



We barely talk anymore

and so much has changed

over the past few months

but I guess that's what happens

when you grow up and grow apart.


now here I stand

and I'm still just that girl

I'm following my heart

in this amazing crazy world.


Life is too deep for words
so don't try to describe it, just live it.


Beautiful things come out of horrible situations. I know for a fact. Out of sadness you get a new found wisdom on how the world can look with a haze of gray clouds, how people can be senseless, how you can see the whole universe in a whole new way. And that may be hard to handle, hard to cope, hard to accept, but it is so damn beautiful if you really take the chance to realize. Out of anger, you can feel your heart beat race, with every beat it is shaking your whole being and not only the heavy steps you take. It is when you, your whole self and some power is telling you that you are alive. And that is amazing in every angle. Out of anything there is something in there that makes it incredible. Something that makes it shine. Whatever you feel is potent and it is such a blessing to be able to feel what you feel. You just have to think about it.


We're meant to lose the people we love,

How else would we know how much they mean to us



Just another step, til I reach the door. You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you this way. I wish I could tell you something to take it all away. Sometimes I wish I could save you.


How can you just walk away from me, when all I can do is watch you leave?

Cause we shared the laughter and the pain.

&& Even shared the tears.

You're the only one who really me at all.

So take a look at me now. There's just an empty space.

&& You coming back to me is against the odds,

&& that's what I've got to face.


Oh I wish I could just say no

& get you out of my heart

it must be nice to have some place to go

when your world falls apart.


sometimes i thank god for unanswered prayers

remember when you're talking to the man upstairs

just because he doesn't answer don't mean he doesn't care

some of god's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers


Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I,
not events, have the power to make me happy or
unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be.
Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet.
I have just one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it.
+ + Groucho Marx

You are where you are right now in your life because of
the choices you have made and the actions you have taken.
If you want to change your life, remember that change starts with you.
+ + Jeffrey Keller

The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding
the attitude we will embrace from that day. We cannot
change our past, we cannot change the fact that people
will act in certain way. We cannot change the inevitable.
The only thing that we can do is play on the one string that
we have and this string is, Attitude. I am convinced that life
is ten percent what happens to me and ninety percent how I
react to it. And so it is with you....
We are in charge of our Attitudes.
+ + Charles Swindoll


Build up your weaknesses until
they become your strong points.
+ + Knute Rockne


My philosophy?
Simplicity plus variety.
+ + Hank Stram


Often we allow ourselves to be upset by small things we
should despise and forget. We lose many irreplaceable
hours brooding over grievances that, in a year's time,
will be forgotten by us and by everybody. No, let us
devote our life to worthwhile actions and feelings,
to great thoughts, real affections and enduring undertakings.
+ + Andre Maurois

People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered.
Love them anyway. If you do good, people may accuse
you of selfish motives. Do good anyway. If you are
successful, you may win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway. The good you do today may be
forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Honesty and
transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and
transparent anyway. What you spend years building
may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway. People
who really want help may attack you if you help them.
Help them anyway. Give the world the best you have
and you may get hurt. Give the world your best anyway.
+ + Mother Teresa


Never miss an opportunity to make others happy,
even if you have to leave them alone in order to do it.


A day of worry is more exhausting
than a day of work.

+ + John Lubbock


Listen, girl :If you truly need him,
And he truly needs you,
Then fate won't let you lose him.
Somehow, some way Fate will bring him back.
It may not be exactly when you want,
or exactly the way you imagined,
Not your perfect fairy tale ending.
But he'll come back.


If you accept the expectations of others,
especially negitive expectations,
then you never will change the outcome...
That was the attitude I had ever since
I was cut from the varsity team in high school.
That attitude became a part of me.
+ + Michael Jordan


Rule number one is, don't sweat the small stuff.
Rule number two is, it's all small stuff.
+ + Robert Eliot


most girls say they want a fairy tale but you taught me that its not really what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me, laugh at my jokes even if they arent funny & someone that wrestles with me and doesnt let me win just because I'm a girl; yeah riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice but playing thumb war with you seems much better


honestly, i don't really think people can change. you know, at the
end of the day, you are who you are, and it's probably who you've
always been.


I definitely feel a lot more comfortable with myself & care a lot less about
what other people think of me because i've learned when you're in
the public eye, people will take every opportunity to criticize you, whether
you deserve it or not. every girl goes through that in one way or another.
it's just a part of life . i had every insecurity a high school girl faces & I'm
not saying i'm completely over all of that, but it's never as bad as we make
it . I have so much respect for girls who are totally happy with themselves.
-- lauren conrad

you slowly pushed me out of your life. I'm glad you're finally noticing.

I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know.
I believe this is because chances are, I’ll never see them ever again.
And I feel like I can say anything I want. They don't know my past or
what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they are seeing
right that second. I’m the person I am now, not then. People
I know don't see the difference.


I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows; who
will listen to a love song and see his face; who will look for him
wherever she goes. I'm the type of girl who doesn't get over
things easily; who will beat herself up when someone doesn't
love her back; who will cry herself to sleep because she feels
she's not good enough. But I'm also the type of girl who's strong; who
can cry her eyes out and then forbid them to come back the next
morning; who will blast some old pop song and sing it at the top
of her lungs because she feels like it; who will be no one but herself.

I remember when I used to be the happiest,
loudest, spunkiest person alive. Nothing could
get me down for very long. I smiled all the
time
and laughed nonstop. I still see glimpses
of that girl sometimes, but not much. I haven't
seen her in a while. I miss her.


Ever had one of those days where you hate the world
and anything that happens. Even dropping your pen
makes you want to break down & cry.

when you reach into a box of cracker jacks, you know there's a prize in the bottom. when you miss the king of the world scene in titanic, you can rewind it. you can fast forward through when simba's dad dies in the lion king. but in life, if you miss something, you miss it. you can't go back. sometimes you take all the right chances, say all the right things, and you still end up right back where you started. happiness is not free, even though everyone says it is. really, think about it. something bad has to happen for you to realize how much you appreciate what you have now, to truly be happy. you won't know what the sunshine feels like unless you've been in the dark for a while. the people you love the most are the ones that end up hurting you the most. life bites, and there are no guarantees, but somehow it always ends up giving you this great feeling when everything's said and done.


eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw a picture with crayons like you're still 6 years old and then give it to someone who is very important to you. take a nap, go on vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke. get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make an ugly shirt and wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you wouldn't usually go for, make a scrap book, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the un-kissed, hug the un-hugged, love the unloved, and live your life to the fullest. so when you're standing in front of heaven's gate that chosen day, you'll have no regrets, no sorrows, no disappointments.

i wanna feel reckless
i wanna live it up, just because

I was born to be stubborn, a little bit bossy. To push people, to push myself. I was taught to never take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I have. I learned to never give up, to believe in myself and most of all, to fight for myself.

I pinky promise when we're old we've gonna be best friends chasing each other in nursing homes with motor scooters.


There's a point in your life when you know who stays forever

and who's just around for a while. People change, but so do you.

Sometimes for the best and sometimes for the worst.

Bad things happen, to everyone. You're not in it alone.

People lie, and some people just don't care how you feel.

Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you're in.

Everything will be okay, eventually.

There are always people in your life that just make your day,

no matter the miles. I know all about distance,

I've been dealing with it all my life.

So don't tell me it's easy - because it's not.

But it is worth it, I'd rather stay in touch with the people I love

than just drop it and forget about it.

You don't forget about the ones you love.

It doesn't work like that. Give it all you've got,

and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you,

have what you have, someone always has it worse off than you,

but that doesn't mean your pain doesn't count


She was the girl who dreamed, the girl who saw things the way they were but never really let it get in the way of her wishful thinking. She laughed, she cried. She lived life to the fullest, with no intentions of ever turning back or regretting anything.


Im waiting, waiting, for the right boy to come along.

The one who will accept me for who I am.

The one who will respect me and my morals.

The one who will tease me when I say something stupid.

The one who won't be afraid to chase after me.

So, if I have to wait a little longer than most girls, it's okay.

I know he'll be worth the wait.



when something bad happens, you have three choices, you can either let it define you, destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you. It’s up to you.


Why is it that if a person tells

you there are a million stars in the

universe you believe them, but if

someone tells you there's wet paint

somewhere you have to touch it to make sure?


Sometimes loving someone means letting them go.

Bullshit. Love means holding on to someone as hard as you can because if you don't, one blink and they might disappear. Forever.


Twenty years from now, I'm going to look back and remember and that there were those few people who could turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. Those people who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. Those few people who carried tears on their shoulders after every fight, every break up, every death. The people who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. The few who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. Those people that accepted every decision I made, believing that I'd make the right decision. The few who knew that I really was. Those people that made the biggest difference in my life. The ones who were my strength through hard times. My best friends.


Never in a million years did I think I'd find someone so utterly and completely perfect, someone who would make me happier than I ever dreamed I could be, someone that would touch my life so profoundly and just give me a whole new reason to breathe. But then I found you and realized that everything I anticipated you to be, doesn't even compare to what you are.


you probably won't remember the
test you failed, but you will never forget
the person you were with the night before,
when you decided not to study


so please just be patient. i'm so afraid to care about
someone
. i know it seems like i'm this strong girl who
can get through everything but inside i'm very fragile.
i've had so many things thrown at me; and each one
has only made a crack. what i'm afraid of is shattering


be crazy, be outgoing, be original.
be your own person.
set your own standards.
be smart, don't hate anyone, be happy.
don't drink to fit in.
stand out.
be yourself; live your own life.


All a girl needs is love to make her weak, alcohol to make her strong, and friends to pick her up when both make her hit the floor.


Sometimes you've gotta get fucked up to feel sober, cry to see clearly, and fall down down enough to learn how to pick yourself back up

Sometimes we know we shouldn't and that's exactly why we do.

As I’ve grown, I’ve learned several things. Life is full of disappointments and people you trusted will sooner or later let you down. I’ve learned that often those you love will love someone else and there's only one way to fall- fast and hard. I’ve learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart. I’ve learned that everything can change in the blink of an eye and tears often come without invitation. I’ve learned crying can make us stronger and there is never too much love to go around. I’ve found that every time you give someone a piece of your heart, it's a piece that you will never get back. I’ve learned the past is meant to be put behind us and we can't dwell on regrets, for what is done is done. I’ve learned that trusting yourself is the first step and that forgiving is remembering that helps your own heart more than theirs. I’ve learned some things aren't meant to be understood and only time heals. I’ve found that imagination is our greatest gift and that we are meant to dream for a reason. I’ve learned it is never too late to fall in love and that being 'beautiful' is all on the inside.

To me, fearless is not the absence of fear.

It's not being completely unafraid.

To me, fearless is having fears.

Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them.

To me, fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before.

Fearless if walking into your freshman year of highschool at fifteen.

Fearless is getting up and fighting for what you want over and over again...

even though every time you've tried before, you've lost.

It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change.

Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you,

even though you can't breathe without them.

I think it's fearless to fall for your best friend

even though he's in love with someone else.

And when someone apologizes to you enough times

for things they'll never stop doing,

I think it's fearless to stop believing them.

It's fearless to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away.

I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless.

I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless.

Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright... that's fearless too.

But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it.

You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.

That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is fearless.



Sometimes you need a breakdown.

One of those yell at everyone,

cry until you fall and can’t breathe

kind of breakdowns.

Then you feel better.

And if you don’t,

at least people will know your not okay.


at some point during almost every romantic comedy, the female lead suddenly trips and falls, stumbling helplessly over something ridiculous like a leaf. and then some matthew mcconaughey type either whips around the corner just in the nick of time to save her or is clumsily pulled down along with her. that event predictably leads to the magical moment of their first kiss. please. i fall all the time. you know who comes and gets me? the bouncer. -chelsea handler


Just because you've been exploring my mouth, doesn't mean you get to take an expedition to the south.



I'm scared because I don't want anyone else to steal your heart; that's what I want to do

It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours, and how now, you can barely even look at them.


i look back on us and how we called each other best friends,
funny cause in our situation the label was there but no promise attached to it's end.
our friendship was built up on a thousand lies, each of us with a good disguise.
i remember putting so much trust in you just to have you prove me wrong,
so many times you had me in tears, making up apologies cause i had no idea what i did wrong.
but i guess i should say thank you for showing me i deserve better,
and for the record i hope you know after this final goodbye you wont be receiving another three page apology letter.


fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to

someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them


part of me just wants to find the right words to hurt you. the same way you hurt me.

you know it truely takes a lot to call someone a best friend,
or even for that matter a true friend. there's a lot of time,
and a lot of trusting to be done. there has to be problems
in between to prove that you'll make it through.


sooner or later, friends who you thought would be around forever
will end up taking different paths in life.
but no matter where you go,
you'll take a piece of each one with you


i miss the past, and all the people who were apart of it.
i miss the people who claimed to care about me, when
deep down, i knew as well as them, that they didn't. i
miss the way things used to be. it's a known fact, which
i was aware of, but i didnt want to believe it, not like
how i do now, people always leave


i think sometimes you have to lose
someone completely before you figure
out what they really mean to you.

some people are easy to get over. they only take a day or two, but sooner or later, you'll find the one who has changed everything about you, and no matter how hard you try, you can't find the words to say goodbye.


and we know it's never simple, never easy
never a clean break, no one here to save me
you're the only thing i know like the back of my hand


i've been through so much with you, more than any other guy, and i still want you as much as i did the first time i laid eyes on you. every time i see you, it's like meeting you for the first time all over again. it's the butterflies in the stomach, the not knowing what to say, but out of all the things you've taught me, there's still one thing i don't know. i don't know how to fall out of love with you. i don't know how to let go and as i stand here looking at you, i wonder if there will ever be a day when i will get over your smile, when i will let go of the hugs you gave me that i continue to feel. a day when i forget the words you said to me, forget what you meant to me or forget how much i love you. but, no matter what you did to me or whatever happens to us, i know i could never get over, let go, or forget you. when you care about someone as much as i do you, being apart is the hardest thing to get used to. i thought i'd handle it just fine and that i'd be happy just to keep you on my mind. but it isn't always that easy. sometimes the one thing that would please me the most is simply seeing you. i knew that i'd miss you, i just didn't know i'd miss you as much as i do. i want to share my tears with you. i want to share my love with you. i want to share my happiness with you. i want to share my strength with you, my smiles, my frowns, my joy, my loss, my good days, my bad days, the rain, the sunshine, hot cocoa, and the snowflakes. i want to share my life with you. people can just be best friends, but at one point or another, one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe, just maybe, forever


I can't just sit here and have coffee with you. I love you. I know the other night didn't mean for you what it did for me, but I haven't stopped thinking about you since it happened, and not because it was great- which it was- but because it was right. It was so right, and you might not see that right now, but I do, and if I have to wait until we're both 80 years old for you to see it, then I'll wait. I'm not going anywhere. This is it for me. You're it for me, and I can't pretend to feel any less than I do, I just can't


"Tough girls come from New York. Sweet girls, they're from Georgia. But us Texas girls, we have fire and ice in our blood. We can ride horses, be a debutante, throw left hooks, and drink with the boys, all the while making sweet tea, darlin'. And if we have an opinion, you

know you're gonna hear it.”


if you learn to find joy in even the most unbearable things in life. you will never be un-happy.



God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say "thank you?"
-William A. Ward-



Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others


as you’re reading this, your life’s getting shorter. it’s ticking away. i’m not saying this to frighten you. or even scare you. though it may. i’m saying this to awaken you. to inspire you. to rise you out of your deep slumber. to really know you won’t live forever.


you just have to go after what you want and if it doesn't want you back then so be it, it doesn't deserve you anyways.

During my second year of nursing school our professor gave us a quiz. I breezed through the questions until I read the last one: "What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?" Surely this was a joke. I had seen the cleaning woman several times, but how would I know her name? I handed in my paper, leaving thelast question blank. Before the class ended, one student asked if the last question would count toward our grade. "Absolutely," the professor said. "In your careers, you will meet many people. All are significant. They deserve your attention and care, even if all you do is smile and say hello." I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her name was Dorothy.

+ + Joann C. Jones

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