Thursday, September 30, 2010

It's going to be alright...


There's points in life where you just have to stop and remember why you're here. Remember that this world is oh, so temporary.

I just think of Carrie Underwood's song, and it just reminds me that there's so much more to this world than football games, friends even, and school, and work. There's so much more.

But why do we not live like there's more?

Last night I went to Lifegroup, aka bible study, and we went out to just talk to people and share the gospel. I was freaking nervous. So nervous that I couldn't do it. That is SO not me. I'm the girl who can talk to a freaking wall, but talking to a complete stranger about God? Me? I couldn't do it.

I was driving home weeping because I felt ashamed that I couldn't do it.

Recently, my friend Matt put a video blog up... It really got me thinking..


Obviously that's the video.

Later that night my mom and I had a really good conversation. I learned a lot, about myself, her and our relationship. It was good. Real good.

I'm learning that sometimes things don't go as planned, but in the end it's probably a good thing. I'm learning a lot about myself, my friends, my family and my life.

God is good.

Things will happen how they are supposed to happen.

I hope you're doing well!

Love ya!

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Monday, September 20, 2010

Pick up all the pieces..

Editors note: I haven't blogged consistently in awhile, working 4ish jobs is getting the best of me. I'm going to start blogging again, I love to write...love love love!

Time to pick up all the pieces and move on...time for a new beginning...a new life...

Losing friends sucks. Hardcore.

Friends come and go, and I'm learning that maybe they were in my life for the amount of time necessary to teach me and show me things, and then move on. It's so hard, to stop caring about someone you once called your best friend. Someone you swore would be the maid of honor in your wedding. It's just like one day we woke up and aren't friends anymore, and it breaks my heart.

I can't really talk about our friendship without tearing up, it hurts so much. I don't like losing friends, especially ones I once trusted my life with. But I know the Lord is teaching me through this.

I went to church for the first time on Sunday in awhile. A girl about my age spoke and said something that has really stuck with me...

In order to change, you have to have the desire to change....
Ouch. Thanks God.

At Breakaway last week, and at church this week we talked about idols...it's like God's telling me something there too....

I just need to pick up all these pieces and put them together...

The happy things going on in my life:

On Thursday KSBJ gave me tickets to see Tenth Avenue North, Addison Road, and Matt Maher in Houston. I'M STOKED!! There's like 5 of us going, it's going to be so fun! I'm also heading up promotions down here in CS for the TobyMac and Skillet concert!!! I'm so excited!! I had so much fun with Casting Crowns, and I love doing promotions!

On a completely lighter note, I put a friendship together tonight. It's a good feeling, but I'm praying it's what the Lord desires. He's probably my best guy friend, and means the world to me, and I care about him deeply, he's a great guy. I thank God for his friendship and for putting this friendship back together. To Him be the glory! :)

Recently, I came across and old song of mine in iTunes by Matthew West and it fits my season right now, perfectly!!

You are Everything..Matthew West...

Breathe again
Feeling all this life within
Every single beat of my heart
I’m the one with big mistakes
Big regrets and bigger breaks
Than I ever care to confess
Oh but, You’re the one who looks at me
And sees what I was meant to be
More than just a beautiful mess

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18
I love you guys
Blessings,
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there is a name that saves. a name so wonderful. his blood has sealed our pardon through the triumph of the cross.
all glory and fame be unto the one who reigns. yes you reign. all heaven and earth rejoice at the sound of your name, your name!

Sunday, September 12, 2010

4 years this week.


It'll be 4 years on Wednesday since Ed died. I miss him so much.

Here's my essay on that night... we played Westlake on Friday, Consol won. It brought back so many memories.

I MISS YOU ED.
Love you!!



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