Monday, November 9, 2009

So yeah.

I miss my best friend, the one who keeps me accountable. I miss her! I don't know, tonight it just seems like we barely talk, and when we do it's short. I know we both have our own lives, but she's the one person I want to be there through everything. I want her next to me when I get married some day. I just miss the summer when we were together everyyyy day! This summer was amazing, seeing her all the time, and I felt like we were doing really well both focusing on the Lord. She's coming home this weekend along with two of her friends, and I mean I'm excited but I feel like we won't have Kassie-Caitlin time and I feel like I could really use that right now. I don't know I'm just rambling. I love my best friend, and I'm so excited to see her that's for sure.

I've decided I'm just going to be completely honest on my blog, I mean I guess it'll help keep me accountable too ya know.

I'm struggling with some things in my life and I just want to get over them sooo bad.

I'm doing better with alcohol, I mean I've had a slip up in the last month, but recently I went out and I looked around and I was so disgusted with the world and what it's full of. There were girls dressed in like no clothes, and alcohol every where. I was disgusted with what our world accepts these days. I just was like "this used to be me, but thank you Jesus for saving me from that." It just made me happy that I am not in that temptation any more.

I'm struggling with the whole who I am thing. Anddd just making true friendships. Just pray for me for this, I see God working in this area, I just need more wisdom in it.

I'm struggling with self-image. One of my dearest friends tonight told me that every girl does almost all the time. "Why am I not that pretty." "Man she can pull of that look, I wish I could." It's a constant battle, but I'm just trying to give it to the Lord.

I realized something this week, and kind of made my own quote. "To trust in the Lord fully; is to not worry fully."

How true is that. If we trust in the Lord 100% then we shouldn't worry about anything, and here I am worrying about stupid stuff. Something I need to work on.

I feel like in most of lives at this point in the semester we just need rest and to spend time with our God. That's totally what I'm feeling right now. I think tomorrow I'm going to go to both Breakaways and for the first one I'm just going to spend it with the Lord. I think I need that right now.

Love you!


1 Peter 5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.

1 comment:

  1. Oh girl, I am right there with you on some of those struggles. I struggle with my self image constantly and it's awful. It eats away at me all the time. I'm so glad to hear you're doing better with the temptation to drink. That's wonderful to hear. :)