I miss my best friend, the one who keeps me accountable. I miss her! I don't know, tonight it just seems like we barely talk, and when we do it's short. I know we both have our own lives, but she's the one person I want to be there through everything. I want her next to me when I get married some day. I just miss the summer when we were together everyyyy day! This summer was amazing, seeing her all the time, and I felt like we were doing really well both focusing on the Lord. She's coming home this weekend along with two of her friends, and I mean I'm excited but I feel like we won't have Kassie-Caitlin time and I feel like I could really use that right now. I don't know I'm just rambling. I love my best friend, and I'm so excited to see her that's for sure.
I've decided I'm just going to be completely honest on my blog, I mean I guess it'll help keep me accountable too ya know.
I'm struggling with some things in my life and I just want to get over them sooo bad.
I'm doing better with alcohol, I mean I've had a slip up in the last month, but recently I went out and I looked around and I was so disgusted with the world and what it's full of. There were girls dressed in like no clothes, and alcohol every where. I was disgusted with what our world accepts these days. I just was like "this used to be me, but thank you Jesus for saving me from that." It just made me happy that I am not in that temptation any more.
I'm struggling with the whole who I am thing. Anddd just making true friendships. Just pray for me for this, I see God working in this area, I just need more wisdom in it.
I'm struggling with self-image. One of my dearest friends tonight told me that every girl does almost all the time. "Why am I not that pretty." "Man she can pull of that look, I wish I could." It's a constant battle, but I'm just trying to give it to the Lord.
I realized something this week, and kind of made my own quote. "To trust in the Lord fully; is to not worry fully."
How true is that. If we trust in the Lord 100% then we shouldn't worry about anything, and here I am worrying about stupid stuff. Something I need to work on.
I feel like in most of lives at this point in the semester we just need rest and to spend time with our God. That's totally what I'm feeling right now. I think tomorrow I'm going to go to both Breakaways and for the first one I'm just going to spend it with the Lord. I think I need that right now.
1 Peter 5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.