It's going to be alright...

There's points in life where you just have to stop and remember why you're here. Remember that this world is oh, so temporary.

I just think of Carrie Underwood's song, and it just reminds me that there's so much more to this world than football games, friends even, and school, and work. There's so much more.

But why do we not live like there's more?

Last night I went to Lifegroup, aka bible study, and we went out to just talk to people and share the gospel. I was freaking nervous. So nervous that I couldn't do it. That is SO not me. I'm the girl who can talk to a freaking wall, but talking to a complete stranger about God? Me? I couldn't do it.

I was driving home weeping because I felt ashamed that I couldn't do it.

Recently, my friend Matt put a video blog up... It really got me thinking..

Obviously that's the video.

Later that night my mom and I had a really good conversation. I learned a lot, about myself, her and our relationship. It was good. Real good.

I'm learning that sometimes things don't go as planned, but in the end it's probably a good thing. I'm learning a lot about myself, my friends, my family and my life.

God is good.

Things will happen how they are supposed to happen.

I hope you're doing well!

Love ya!

Pick up all the pieces..

Editors note: I haven't blogged consistently in awhile, working 4ish jobs is getting the best of me. I'm going to start blogging again, I love to write...love love love!

Time to pick up all the pieces and move on...time for a new beginning...a new life...

Losing friends sucks. Hardcore.

Friends come and go, and I'm learning that maybe they were in my life for the amount of time necessary to teach me and show me things, and then move on. It's so hard, to stop caring about someone you once called your best friend. Someone you swore would be the maid of honor in your wedding. It's just like one day we woke up and aren't friends anymore, and it breaks my heart.

I can't really talk about our friendship without tearing up, it hurts so much. I don't like losing friends, especially ones I once trusted my life with. But I know the Lord is teaching me through this.

I went to church for the first time on Sunday in awhile. A girl about my age spoke and said something that has really stuck with me...

In order to change, you have to have the desire to change....

Ouch. Thanks God.

At Breakaway last week, and at church this week we talked about idols...it's like God's telling me something there too....

I just need to pick up all these pieces and put them together...

The happy things going on in my life:

On Thursday KSBJ gave me tickets to see Tenth Avenue North, Addison Road, and Matt Maher in Houston. I'M STOKED!! There's like 5 of us going, it's going to be so fun! I'm also heading up promotions down here in CS for the TobyMac and Skillet concert!!! I'm so excited!! I had so much fun with Casting Crowns, and I love doing promotions!

On a completely lighter note, I put a friendship together tonight. It's a good feeling, but I'm praying it's what the Lord desires. He's probably my best guy friend, and means the world to me, and I care about him deeply, he's a great guy. I thank God for his friendship and for putting this friendship back together. To Him be the glory! :)

Recently, I came across and old song of mine in iTunes by Matthew West and it fits my season right now, perfectly!!

You are Everything..Matthew West...

Breathe again
Feeling all this life within
Every single beat of my heart
I’m the one with big mistakes
Big regrets and bigger breaks
Than I ever care to confess
Oh but, You’re the one who looks at me
And sees what I was meant to be
More than just a beautiful mess

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:18

I love you guys

Blessings,

there is a name that saves. a name so wonderful. his blood has sealed our pardon through the triumph of the cross.

all glory and fame be unto the one who reigns. yes you reign. all heaven and earth rejoice at the sound of your name, your name!

4 years this week.

It'll be 4 years on Wednesday since Ed died. I miss him so much.

Here's my essay on that night... we played Westlake on Friday, Consol won. It brought back so many memories.

I MISS YOU ED.

Love you!!

http://kassietheaggie.blogspot.com/2009/09/3-whole-years.html

Measure of Beauty

Lindsey Kane is a song writer, who was a student teacher at my HS my junior or sophomore year. She went to A&M and she leads worship now.

She did a video back in the day and I came across it tonight and it touched my heart, again.

Measure of Beauty:

(Sorry this is the arabic captioned one, the real one is being stupid.)

Crazy Love

This week has sucked up until yesterday.

I got home from the hotel and slept for 7 hours. I was mentally and physically exhausted. I woke up feeling a little better and I was looking through text messages to figure out what to do that night. I came across a text from the beautiful Sarah Postma, and she invited me to a potluck dinner with lifegroup. I just felt this urgency to go. It wasn't by coincidence that she invited me and I went.

I go and we just start fellowshipping and everyone is talking to me asking me how I was, and I wasn't okay. We start talking and stuff and I just confess sins to the group and I felt so much better. I felt freedom! Then 2 girls prayed over me and we talked and I saw the Lord wrap His arms around me and tell me everything will be okay, I've got you. It was the most amazing feeling ever!

I'm doing so much better, it's amazing how God does things.

I bought the book Crazy Love last night and started reading it, and it's really good. I'm just in awe of God!!

God is so faithful, I'm so thankful!

Love you guys!

It seems

Just like yesterday you were playing basketball with Chris when I drove home.

Just like yesterday your family was living 2 houses away.

Just like yesterday that you left this Earth.

I can't believe we're coming upon the 4 year mark of Ed's passing. It's crazy to think it's been 4 years since that terrible night.

I know for a fact Ed is watching over us and smiling.

Every time I look up and see it's the 15th, I just am reminded again of how precious life is. God doesn't promise us tomorrow. We seem invincible, but we will be called home one day too you know.

Life is precious. precious. precious.

Ed was an amazing person, one of my heroes in life. I wish I got 5 more minutes with him. I will one day!

Love and miss you Ed. :)

See you soon boy,

It's sad..

When someone you used to call your best friend, is someone you barely know. It hurts actually.

I mean okay, it's not the end of the world, but when it's someone you swore was going to be in your wedding, and be the girlfriend you ditch your husband for the weekend to see, it's not okay.

The one person who knows you almost as well as you do.

THIS SUCKS.

I thought I'd be okay with it, but I'm not.

Everyone's like "y'all will work it out." I'm afraid this time, we're really becoming two totally different people.

I guess it's time for me to realize that the people you'd thought would be around forever, won't be and that life does go on. I just gotta trust the man upstairs.

It's so hard to care about someone who you can tell doesn't care about you...

It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours, and how now, you can barely even look at them.

..such truth.

Vegas in September, I'm so pumped!!