Weird.

My birthday is Tuesday and it'll be the first birthday in probably 4 or 5 years that a certain someone and I won't talk. I couldn't haven't picked a better time to take a friendship break...*sigh*

I don't know how I feel about this friendship break we're taking, it's necessary but it's super hard. I hope it starts to get easier but I doubt it.

The reason why I did this? I depended on this person entirely too much instead of God or anyone else. I need to be satisfied in Christ before I can be satisfied in a friendship and so I had to take a break.

I hope that with time we can be friends again, but making a clean break is super hard especially since we have a lot of the same friends.

I love her to death, and I didn't want to do this but it's what it was coming to. I pray that we'll heal and come out stronger, but if not I'm gonna trust in the Lord.

I ask you to pray for us too.

Thanks guy!

Yours and His,
Kassie :)

I forgot.

I think today was something I truly needed, as bad as that sounds.

Thanksgiving, a day to give thanks...for everything.

I have a mom and dad still married, I have a grandma who lives with us, I live at home and it doesn't cost me anything, my grandma has been paying for school, I have siblings, I have amazing friends, and I've experienced a lot in my life that have shaped who I am.

The game came and gone but what happened afterward got me thinking...a lot.

Me and Caitlin went to eat and I invited my friend Aaron, and he came and we started talking. The more I started talking the more I realized that I've experienced a lot in my life that most people haven't ever and would kill to experience. My father being who he is, is a great account to how all that has happened. I've taken a lot of it for granted. Times I've thought my life was "so bad," boy was I wrong. I guess I just thought of most of it as "no big deal." Truly, it is a big deal. I mean I'm so blessed and lucky to live the life I have. Today awakened me to that, and so if I've ever come across cocky or whatever I'm truly sorry. I am going to work on being humble. I guess that's what the Lord is showing me right now. Humility is something we have to have and I am going to work on it. :) Thanks God! :)

Also I briefly shared part of my testimony with Aaron and he told me something along the lines of that's cool you have a testimony like that and you'll be able to share it with people and they'll be able to connect. It's kind of weird to think about. I always thought I didn't have a testimony so it was super encouraging to hear that.

It's nice to see Caitlin for more than an hour this weekend. :) We had fun at the game and it's good to catch up and talk to her just like the good ol' days. It's crazy we're halfway through our sophomore year in college. Who would have thought?

I had an amazing realization tonight of how truly blessed I am and how much I forget it.

I love you guys!

Yours and His,
Kassie :)

Thanks!

Howdy!

Man, it's been a crazy week!

I got a second job at the hottest place in Aggieland, Spoons Yogurt. It's a frozen yogurt self-serve place. We have 12 flavors of yogurt, you put the yogurt you want in a bowl then we have a self-serve toppings bar with like 50 toppings. You pay by the weight, it's a really neat thing to have. :)

I am working A LOT. But at Spoons I see everyone I know so it's kind of a socialization for me too. Haha. God knows I know the world. It's a fun job, it's just we're allllllways busy. Line out the door every day until we close.

Tomorrow is thanksgiving so I'm going to reflect on what I'm thankful for..I'll make it brief I promise. :)

I'm thankful for being healthy, having a loving family, having my parents still alive, having my best friend come home for Thanksgiving, all the food we will eat, clothes, a car, money, 2 jobs and the many blessings in my life. I'm also so thankful for the Lord and how He provides.

What are you thankful for?

Enter his gates with thanksgiving and his courts with praise; give thanks to him and praise his name. -Psalm 100:4

We Remember

As I start to gather my thoughts about the last 24 hours I am overwhelmed with emotion. I don't know where to start but however I will try.

I was in 4th grade attending Pebble Creek Elementary. I woke up on the morning of November 18 like any other normal 9 year old would. Thanksgiving was around the corner meaning bonfire was around the corner. I was excited to go with my dad to watch it burn. Why? December 1, 1989 was a night bonfire burned and also was the night I was born. My mother could see Bonfire burning from her hospital room. Thus, bonfire and I had a secret pack. We were tight. :) Anyways, I wake up and go to school and notice the flags are at half-staff. I ask my mom why is this. She was like I don't know, and we turned on the radio and that's where we heard it. I remember the chaos of our town. Our town was distraught and College Station completely stopped that day.

I don't think it was any sort of craziness that 12 Aggies died. I think that was God showing us he was watching over us.

Last night at the ceremony at Reed I was moved. I think we should've had more people there, but the ceremony it's self was fantastic. Then I came home and napped then went the candlelight vigil. It was nice too. A lot of people were there.

The Aggie Spirit is stronger than ever I feel like and I hope it stays that way.


We Remember Them. 11.18.1999 2:42AM.
"There's a spirit can ne'er be told.."

Yeah you are...

I'm so tired of people saying, "you are good enough for someone, someone will be lucky to have you."

UGH.

Why does it seem like I can know everyone, yet have nobody.
Why does it seem like I can be completely surrounded, yet be completely alone and lonely.
Why does it seem like I can't be good enough for anyone these days?

I just hate this feeling. It's like I know everyone but no one wants to hang out with me or truly be my friend.

I know people are like you just need Jesus, but even when I have him I feel like empty and like I have no one and I just can't do that. I just wish people would actually take an interest in me, Kassie, the real me.
I just am sick of fake people, and it seems that's all that goes to A&M. I'm so sick of it. SO SICK.

All the girls around me have guys that will ask them to date parties, and formals and all that crap. I don't. I don't have anyone. NO ONE. I'm lonely and no one takes interest in me.

I'm tired of this.

Yes I'm whining, get over it.

don't post a comment or tell me "things will get better" i'm tired of hearing that bs. I'm tired of the cliche crap.

See what it's like in my life. I could probably name my friend in CS on one hand
I just wanna pack up and move out of this damn town, please?

I'm SO sick of this place, and the people. SO SICK.

Thanks for the call.

This weekend was not what I expected at all. Maybe that's a good thing? But no not really.

Friday I worked until 11AM. Went to the doctor for my stupid ear (I'm so ready to be completely healed from surgery in MARCH...ugh) I go in and he's like yeah we need to cut open part of year to relieve some pressure..."Oh awesome." So he numbs my ear and cuts it open. That night I was in a lot of pain. A LOT.

After that I run errands all day, then surprise at 2:12PM on Friday I get a text message....from Brad. I had to look at it about 20 times to make sure it was really from him. Anyways we text and he was coming to town that night and of course I wanted to see him since it had been forever. Well it won't be til late, which is fine anyways because I have numerous ring dunks anyways. Well I go to two ring dunks with Catie and it was super fun! :) Well I come home about 12:15 to nap until I hear from Brad. So I hear from him about 2:30/3ish in the morning.

We end up meeting up around 3:30...and as he drove up we both had the biggggest smiles on our faces. I didn't let go of him for like an hour. It was amazing. :)

We spend the next like 7 hours together, talking and catching up.....it was amazing. I miss him so much. I don't know where we stand, or anything but he means a lot to me. I was so incredibly happy to see him Friday night! It was the best night ever. :)

Well I sleep pretty much all day Saturday, since I didn't sleep the night before. I woke up about 3:30 to get ready for date party! :) :)

It was 20s themed and it was fun. I had a great group.

I'll post pictures tomorrow or something..maybe.

It was a good time. I went to the hall afterwards with Caitlin but their group wanted to leave pretty early. We went to Taco C ate then I came home and crashed until like 3PM today.

Caitlin left this morning, I didn't see her. She comes home for Thanksgiving, so that will be nice.


I'm about to crash!

2 weeks from Tuesday is my biiirthday!!!

Love you!

Be my Vision

Come meet us, King Jesus
Oh wind of change blow through this temple
Sweet Spirit of God, come and mend our hearts
For all we have are songs
Unless You come

Awaken what’s inside of me
Tune my heart to all You are in me
Even though You’re here God come
And may the vision of You
Be the death of me
And even though you’ve given everything
Jesus come

Come free us, King Jesus
It’s the only way that freedom’s given
From You and You alone
In the work You’ve already done
For all we have are songs,
Unless You come

Here we are, Lord
In this place
Crying out for
Your embrace
To hear Your voice
More than songs
Please come
Jesus come

Shane and Shane played this song last night and it stirred my heart. I want Him to be the vision of me until I die. He's the only way to freedom.

Lately the Lord has just been teaching me so much. I'm so full of joy and happiness when I'm consistently walking with the Lord and my life is so different. I'm seeing that I'm only truly happy when I'm walking with him all the time. For the first time in a long time, I'm truly happy. It's not just a show, I'm happy inside. It's such a great feeling. God is so faithful and good and mighty and indescribable and I could go on forever! :)

I'm gonna start typing up my testimony this week and I'll eventually post it. :) I think it's cool to share your testimony with people.

The Lord is faithful.

Happy Friday!
Kassie :)

AHHHH! It's finally the day I've been looking for!!