Misplaced

I feel like lately I've misplaced a lot of things, or can't put my finger on things. For example I don't feel like 100% me lately, but I don't know why. Maybe it's because I don't know what's wrong with me, because I'm always tired. Luckily the doctors are working on that. Or maybe it's just because God is showing me new people to be around.

I've been going to Lifegroup with Antioch, a new church in town, and I've fallen in love with it. The people, the fellowship, everything! I'm even the snack coordinator now, I know nerdy! haha :)

God is showing me so much!

I sent out my fundraising letters for Beach Reach yesterday. I'm praying for the responses!!

I hate misplacing things, and I think lately I've misplaced some friendships. I think I'm gonna start making new ones. I'm also gonna start, and try to save money. I've misplaced me a lot lately, I'm gonna go on a search to find me in Christ. :)

Love you.

-Kass

hit the ground running

That's how the semester has started! It's crazy already!

I love my classes, and my schedule, God has been so faithful so far this semester and I don't feel behind in any of my classes or anything! SO GOOD!

I got really sick last weekend, that was a setback, I had to go to Urgent Care and get an IV and all that jazz..no bueno. But I'm doing better!! :)

Casting Crowns is coming to Reed in April and God kind of put in my lap heading up a lot of the promotions with KSBJ (the radio station out of Houston putting it on). I'm running with it, and I'm LOVING every minute of it! I've gotten a lot of people on board, and I know the Lord's going to do big things with this. But this has got me thinking..

Maybe my niche is in event promotions, I mean I love campaigning, loved doing stuff for AFTERdark, and I'm loving this. Maybe this is God's way of showing me that? I'm gonna start praying about that!

Life is so GOOD. My life is such a testimony to how great God is. If you wanna hear about it, let's grab coffee soon, sound good? Good.

I hope to see you soon.

His,

kass

happiness<3

I started making a list of things to be happy about...because I think so often we forget to be happy and we take many of these things for granted. I posted this back in July but it's always a good reminder, and will make you smile a little bit, promise.

Things to be happy about.

haircuts. chapstick. sunscreen. straws. Vaseline. math. english. the last cookie. the first and last days of school. rambling. mumbling. thingamabob. thingamajig. thingummy. messes. sidewalks. missing the bus. a locker close to your friends. having your picture in the newspaper. trespassing. ice. the presidential veto. twinkies. books. libraries. a new cd. unexpected phone calls from friends. the word "legit." rubber bands. paper clips. a new pen. white out. the view from an airplane. not being able to sleep Christmas eve, no matter your age. maps. shoes that become comfortable after you wear them a lot. nature. swinging. fights. making up. making out. stars. christmas lights. wrapping presents. candy. windex. windshield wipers. the question, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" doing laundry. girl scout cookies. teakettles. calendars. pancakes with extra syrup. blankets. being told you remind someone of someone else. being told you look like a celebrity. dollar menus. smiley faces. tickle-me-pink crayons. white crayons. crayon sharpeners. mondays. fridays. sleeping all day. staying up all night. running. dogs. cats. a new shirt. sidewalk sales. subways. the smell of rain. thunderstorms. snow in south texas. college. yelling at the tv. crying in a movie. crying over a boy/girl. sunburns. tanning. sock marks on your ankle. being told you were thought about randomly. laughing at something that happened yesterday. girls night outs. a night with the guys. popcorn. airports. disney world. dreams. pigging out. whispering. yelling. reading the cereal box. pop quizzes. dropping your pen. sharpies. being a coach potato. growing as a person. high school. the movie being better than the book. the book being better than the movie. feeling productive. being lazy. going out of the country. water guns. nerf footballs. tag. hide and go seek. slides. flying a kite when there's no wind. the SAT. high school football. hugs. awkward conversations. 8AM classes. the "real world." cleaning your room. doing the dishes. taking out the trash. the smell of chlorine. bubble wrap. a great hair day. bad hair days. new york city. grocery shopping at 2AM. wal-mart. boomboxes. me time. whoopie cushions. skinned knees. a bicycle without training wheels. fortune cookies. prom. malls. the elementary school book fair. people. shapes. big smiles. scissors. blushing. memories. shakespear. letter jackets. newspapers. new car smell. overly bumper-stickered cars. wedding invitations. wind chimes. breaking a nail. receptionists. the dentist. getting lost. strawberries and whipped cream. the child who loves to read. the last word to complete a crossword puzzle. rudolph the red nosed reindeer. construction zones. trampolines. rolli pollies. winning a drawing. bubble baths. Edward Bear: Winnie the Poohs real name. first dates. turning 16. turning 18. turning 21. driveways. colored construction paper. going school clothes shopping. homemade meals. spontaneity. random roadtrips. best friends. mirrors. your first kiss. finals. toe socks. hiding under the covers. team building activities. hearing a heart beat. a baby being born. skipping school. tv show marathons. presets in your car. seeing a movie at midnight when it comes out. high school musical. furniture stores. finding a penny on the street. monkeying around. acting like a hyena. horoscopes. using the excuse, "everyone else is doing it, mom." summer. gumball machines. rings that cost a quarter. silly putty. plato. new years eve. umbrellas. the plastic bar to separate groceries at check out. reading a magazine at the store so you don't have to buy it. babysitting. bonfires. scarves. procrastinating. planners. dry erase boards. chalkboards. name tags. Denny's grand slam breakfast. foreign exchange students. being a designated driver. laughing until you cry. an ending being a beginning in disguise. loving yourself. beginning each day with a smile and saying I am awake and grateful to be alive. bedtime stories. being tucked in. taking pictures everywhere. escalators. moving sidewalks. a long shower. the condition of a basketball stuck between the rim and the backboard. jump ropes. getting mail. watching the sun rise. the energy of a busy college town. your hometown. imagination. pushing your limits. booth or table? snowcones. boy bands. doing something your friends would describe as utterly unlike you. the purple skittles. puddles. shooting stars. detentions. journals. interstates. reading an entire book in a day. book reports. vacation bible school. ringing the bell. hearing about your parents childhood. "I told you so." the sandlot. frequently asked questions. oscar meyer bologna. black and white movies. i love lucy. passing notes in class. life before computers. catching a fly ball at a ballpark. the 100th day of school. valentine's for your whole class. slinkys. learning how to type. handwriting books. paper cuts. spelling your own name wrong. memorizing someone's phone number. obsessing. switching between coke and pepsi. pet peeves. bad drivers. getting it all over your face. "Don't forget to wash behind your ears." "Because I said so." gravity. drifting off to sleep. the spirals of a notebook. a color coordinating family. an organized closet and desk. the smell of a clean house. the clean laundry smell. out of the blue text messages and calls. the planning of your wedding when your 5. the view from an airplane. airports. as seen on tv products in stores. texting. picture messages. mani and pedis. singing at the top of your lungs in a car full of your best friends. 90s music. seeing a movie alone. going to the movies but not actually watching the movie. waking up because you had enough sleep last night. hundred dollar bills. the bible. nasa.

what are you happy about?

Ahhh the beginning

Of a new semester is upon us. I'm really excited, new classes, new faces, new teachers, new beginnings. Isn't it funny how once you enter college your life is broke up by semesters? It's rather intriguing isn't it? :) I just love the start of the semester because it's almost a clean start unless of course you know people in your classes. Anyhow, I'm really excited about this semester because I will hopefully get a 4.0 even though all I need is a 3.5. I can do this. I know I can; I am quite capable of this I just gotta hit the ground running this semester.

Last night I found out who my true friends were, and it hurt me a lot but I guess I'll get over it. Can't please everyone right? *sigh* I try to...it's my weakness.

Yesterday...3 years 4 months...crazy.

"This isn't goodbye my love will follow you, stay with you, baby your never alone..."

Well I'm excited about my 5 classes this semester: Psych, Accounting, History, Anthropology, and Business Law....:)

How's your semester going to be?

I'm still debating on if I'm going to do Phi Lamb...I really want to, but we will see. <3

Love you guys,

Kass

Why...

I came across this song I've had on my iPod but listened to and my sister told me what it's about..suicide. It made really come to grow and love this song. I can relate to it several times..but praise God...:)

Why

Rascal Flatts

You must have been in a place so dark
You couldnt feel the light
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This cant be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh why, thats what I asking
Was there anything i could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul
God only knows what went wrong and whyy youd leave the stage in the middle of a song
mmmmm

Now in my mind ill keep you frozen as a 17 year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun

Oh why thats what I keep asking
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul
Oh God only knows what went wrong and why you would leave the stage in the middle of a song
Yeahhhhh

Now the oak trees a swaying in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
Tangled thoughts i hear the mocking bird sing this old world really aint that bad a place

Oh I theres no comprehending and who am i to try judge or explain
But I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasnt worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
Now your gone and we cry
Its just not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song

<3

Keep Holding on?

I feel like sometimes I have a grip on the world, then other days I look at my life and think why don't I have a grip on anything?

Lady Antebellum is my newest love. They are some talented singers. Go check them out, "American Honey," "Need you now," and this song I have grown to love.... "One Day You Will."

You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now

But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of

One day you will
Oh one day you will

It's a song I needed to hear..I don't know. God's just showing me all this...hmm I need to decipher it all and get a grip on life and keep holding on.

Love you,

Kass :)

Temporary Home <3

Little boy, six years old
A little too used to being alone
Another new mom and dad, another school
Another house that'll never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face

This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is my temporary home

A young mom on her own
She needs a little help, got no where to go
She's looking for a job, looking for a way out
'Cause a half-way house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we'll find our place here in this world

This is our temporary home
It's not where we belong
Windows and rooms that we're passing through
This is just a stop on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because I know
This is our temporary home

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers, "don't cry for me,
I'll see you all someday"
He looks up and says,
"I can see God's face"

This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passing through
This was just a stop on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know
This was my temporary home

This is our temporary home

I bought Carrie Underwood's new CD "Play On" within the first 3 days it came out. I began skimming the tracks like anyone does, just to get a glimpse into it. Number one was Cowboy Casanova, which we all knew. So I skipped to the next track, "Quitter," it was catchy but I didn't listen to it all. Number three was "Mama's Song." This song reminded me of Caitlin to a tee. Good song. Number 4, "Change." It was a social justice song, but it really made me think. I didn't listen to it all kept going, it was kind of mellow. Meh. Number 5 "Undo It" this is my second most favorite song on her album because it's super catchy, and really good. Still didn't listen to it all. Number 6 I didn't listen to very long because I didn't like it very much then, now I like it. It's really good. Then I came to number 7, "Songs like this" and this song was so true. Go listen/read the lyrics you'll agree.

Then Number 8. "Temporary Home." I started playing it and I started listening to the words and began to cry. This song was so powerful, and so touching. It was truly the most remarkable song on the CD. The words are so rich and clear and I felt like I was there in each one of the verses with those people. I felt as if I were there. It was so real to me. I visualized it so well. The song was full of emotion and Carrie's voice fit each stanza perfectly. I've never listened to a song more beautiful. I started really listening to the lyrics and it's almost a praise song because Praise God that this is only our temporary home. Praise God that we are just passing through this earth. And Praise God that through him we can overcome any of those trials. This song is my favorite song right now, and hands down has the most influential meaning in a song. It was written with heart, and sung with heart. Read the lyrics, they are rich and full of vivid images.

The first verse the little boy is in foster care and just can't fit in, and he knows that something good will come of all this and knows it's his temporary home.

The second verse is about a mother and daughter in a halfway house and how the mom tells the baby girl to not worry because this is only our temporary home and there is so much out there.

The last verse is about a older man who's dying and it just reminds us how precious life is and how we shouldn't worry because if we've lived our life good we will see God's face.

The song is just beautiful.

I'm so glad that this Earth is only our temporary home. I'm so glad. I'm not afraid of what's to come because I know where I am now is temporary. I have a Heavenly Father who's waiting to welcome me to my permanent home. I'm so excited.

This song is kind of sad, but if you look at it it's so exciting that this is temporary. The pain we feel is temporary because when we get to be with our Heavenly Father...we won't be in pain any more! :)

Love this song. You can listen here:

I always..

See the good in people.

I think everyone is good, and has good in them. They may stab me in the back, or front but somehow I still think they are a good person and I still care about them. I guess it gets me in trouble. I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders. I just never let people see the true me I guess.

I'm complex and I don't like people figuring me out. I guess that's why I cover it up. I don't let people in very easily because I've been hurt, but yet I let people in at the same time because I see the good in them. I don't know. I'm just rambling.

I'm kind of just bleh right now. :/

I need you now.

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor,
Reachin for the phone cause i cant fight it anymore,
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time,

It's a quarter after one, im all alone and I need you now
I said I wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without, I just need you now

Another shot of whisky can't stop lookin at the door
Wishin you'd come sweepin in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,
For me it happens all the time..

Its a quarter after one im a little drunk and I need you now
I said i wouldnt call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I dont know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all...

Its a quarter after one im all alone and I need you now,
and I said I wouldnt call but im a little drunk and I need you now
and I dont know how I can do without,
I just need you now
I just need you now

Ohh baby I need you now

This song fits today perfectly.

Happy weekend <3

Life updateee

So I've posted ramblings but I haven't given you guys a 2010 update in my life. So here goessss...

Caitlin and I are talking again and I think our friendship is getting a lot better. :) It's so great.

Christmas was great, got everything I wanted and more. I'm so blessed!! :)

I worked a lot over the break, like a lot a lot. But it's been nice because we haven't been busy at work. :)

I got my MacBook fixed, whoop! It looks almost brand new. My big Christmas present was to get it fixed!

I finally registered for classes, 15 hours. Management 211, Anthropology 205, Psychology 107, History 106, and Accounting 229...I think I'll be okay this semester. I'm really going to study and do well.

I don't know if I'm going to do Phi Lamb in the spring because I really need to focus on school and stuff, but we will see.

Other than that I'm working a lot, and I'm actually ready for school to start because College Station is so boring with no one in town. :(

Well that's my quick update.

I hope 2010 is good.

:)

Love you guys!

Kassie :)

the beauty of the cross.

The cross is truly beautiful, isn't it? I'm so thankful for the cross. It's giving me second chances time and time again. I'm free, I can let go, and his Grace, well it's found me just as I am. No need to clean up to come to Him. But by the blood of Christ I can come. How great is that?

God is so good.

Beauty of the Cross
Jeff Johnson

At the cross I found the beauty of your matchless grace
At the cross I see a King who died to take my place
It's the moment that you made me clean and pardoned my soul

Amazing grace that I would be allowed into your throne
Not by my own will but solely by Your will alone
I'm unworthy of this love you're showin' to me
I see my desperate need.

The beauty of the cross is that there is One who has redeemed my soul
The beauty of the cross is that I'm finally free and letting go
The beauty of the cross is that Your grace has found me just as I am

Not my own works that I may boost or I could come
But simply through your son the sinless and exalted one
Only through the cross that may I claim to draw close to you
Saved so that you would receive all glory due your name
Everlasting God from age to age you never change
A true love story, remains for all eternity
That all the world would see

The beauty of the cross is that there is One who has redeemed my soul
The beauty of the cross is that I'm finally free and letting go
The beauty of the cross is that Your grace has found me just as I am

My sinful soul could only be redeemed by Love of a sinless King
So you came to the world that You had made
Conquered sin on the cross
And you rose FROM THE GRAVE

The beauty of the cross is that there is One who has redeemed my soul
The beauty of the cross is that I'm finally free and letting go
The beauty of the cross is that Your grace has found me just as I am