Thursday, June 25, 2009

I'm famous!!

Check out this:

http://admissions.tamu.edu/files/pubs/Transfer_Guide_08_09.pdf

Page 51, this make me so happy! haha!

My sister and brother return from Church Camp tomorrow..it's been nice without them for a week..haha :P

I start work Monday..I don't know how thrilled I am about it..I mean a jobs a job right. Especially one that you make decent money at. I just didn't get the schedule I wanted. I wanted Tuesdays Fridays and Saturdays off..but I'm only off Tuesday Wednesday and Thursday because I wanted those days off so I could travel on weekends...So I'm already looking for a new job..haha.

**EDIT**

Help Me Believe
Donna Stuart

All that I’ve done and all that’s been done to me
drove nails through Your hands hard and fast to the tree.
And the lies that I live and the shame in my story
You covered with blood for Your Name and Your glory.

Jesus help me believe. Jesus help me receive
that this girl You’ve created You have redeemed.
Lord help me believe this. Lord help me receive
that this daughter You’ve rescued,
You’ve washed her clean.


So I raise outstretched arms with my knees to the earth,
and I bow low my heart for in You is my worth.
And I SHOUT from this mountain great JOY in my soul
HALLELUJAH KING JESUS!
In You I am whole!


And when I am tempted to believe something less
I run to Your WORD embracing forgiveness
Thank You for Loving and
Thank You for healing me.


How AWESOME and true are these lyrics. I am a daughter of the King and he's washed me clean. I so often forget this.. He loves me and forgives me because I'm a daughter of his. I need to shout Hallelujah more!!


I love my God!!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Boys, Boys!

SO much has been going on..

haha. I've been slackinggg. Brad and I are I guess kind of official, I don't know. I feel like we are though..I don't know..I do know that he's amazing and wonderful!

Umm Caitlin and I are getting so much better, it's awesome. Sucks she's leaving in like 2 months. :/ I get upset when I start thinking about it.

I got hired at West for sure...I'm not too thrilled. Good money though..

I'm ready to go see brad..

I'm about to peace out.

Night.

Kassie


Saturday, June 20, 2009

Frustrated

I'm super frustrated. I don't know exactly why but I am.

I've been in this weird mood lately idk. Blargh.

I haven't talked to Brad in like 4 days..and it's driving me crazyy. Literally crazy.

This person comes back to town tomorrow and I'm going to see him. I'm excited.

Ummm I have to write my paper tomorrow...boo.

It's Father's day and I have a great Father who puts in so many hours at work yet still makes time for his family. I love him so much!!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, DADDY!!

I love you!

Kassie

Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say Rejoice! Philippians 4:4

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Wedding? Wait, what?

Lately, the topic of marriage has come up way to often for me. Me and Caitlin started talking it about it the other day, and it weirded me out. Like idk it's crazy to think that we could have met the person we're going to marry or we'll meet them in the near future. It blows my mind, I'm 19 and half years old, I never thought I'd see this day. Then again, I don't feel like I'm ever going to see 21. haha. Time is flying by......

In other news, this guy I had a thing with Fall Semester, Brad, is back in my life. It's quite interesting. Just sucks he lives in Dallas. I think there's potential with us for real this time. It was messy last semester, but I think us talking more has helped a lot. He's great. =) I'm really excited about the future. :DD

I got recommended for hire at a place today..we shall see what comes of that. I want a job so I can go see braddd.

I went to the Apple Store today and they wanted to charge me $430 to fix my MacBook..So once I get a job I'm just gonna save up and buy a new MacBook pro..because it'll end up being better in the long run!!

BCS vs. Playoffs is my research topic and it's very interesting. I love it.

Okay bed time.
Night.

5 things:

using the excuse, "everyone else is doing it, mom." summer. gumball machines. rings that cost a quarter. silly putty.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Quotesss

when you reach into a box of cracker jacks, you know there's a prize in the bottom. when you miss the king of the world scene in titanic, you can rewind it. you can fast forward through when simba's dad dies in the lion king. but in life, if you miss something, you miss it. you can't go back. sometimes you take all the right chances, say all the right things, and you still end up right back where you started. happiness is not free, even though everyone says it is. really, think about it. something bad has to happen for you to realize how much you appreciate what you have now, to truly be happy. you won't know what the sunshine feels like unless you've been in the dark for a while. the people you love the most are the ones that end up hurting you the most. life bites, and there are no guarantees, but somehow it always ends up giving you this great feeling when everything's said and done.


eat that damn chocolate cake, get your hair wet, love someone, dance in those muddy puddles, tell someone off, draw a picture with crayons like you're still 6 years old and then give it to someone who is very important to you. take a nap, go on vacation, do a cartwheel, make your own recipe, dance like no one sees you, paint each nail a different color, take a bubble bath, laugh at a corny joke. get on that table and dance, pick strawberries, take a jog, plant a garden, make an ugly shirt and wear it all day, learn a new language, write a song, date someone you wouldn't usually go for, make a scrap book, go on a picnic, relax in the sun, make your own home video, kiss the un-kissed, hug the un-hugged, love the unloved, and live your life to the fullest. so when you're standing in front of heaven's gate that chosen day, you'll have no regrets, no sorrows, no disappointments.


I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know.
I believe this is because chances are, I’ll never see them ever again.
And I feel like I can say anything I want. They don't know my past or
what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they are seeing
right that second. I’m the person I am now, not then. People
I know don't see the difference.


I'm the type of girl who will fall for a guy she barely knows; who
will listen to a love song and see his face; who will look for him
wherever she goes. I'm the type of girl who doesn't get over
things easily; who will beat herself up when someone doesn't
love her back; who will cry herself to sleep because she feels
she's not good enough. But I'm also the type of girl who's strong; who
can cry her eyes out and then forbid them to come back the next
morning; who will blast some old pop song and sing it at the top
of her lungs because she feels like it; who will be no one but herself.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

2 years and 9 months.

September 15, 2006 was 2 years and 9 months ago today. I know people think I should be over it, but every 15th of the month I realize he's still gone. It's so hard. I'm in tears right now just thinking about it. I drove home, right past the house he grew up in hoping to see his car, and it wasn't there. I miss him so much. He was an amazing guy. I love his family and was SO glad to see them after Spring Break even if I wasn't all there because of surgery. Anyways, I really miss him. You know the grieving process is so long, and you have good days and bad. Today is definitely going to be a bad one. I just am so emotional about it. I really haven't been this emotional about his death in awhile. I don't know but it hit me tonight. I guess it's just still hard to talk about.

I miss him a lot, and I absolutely CAN NOT wait to see him again. I don't know, blogging makes me feel better.

I love y'all.

I'm gonna write Ed a letter:

Dear Special Ed: I miss you. I remember you playing basketball with Chris outside your house and I'd stop and roll my window down and give you hell. Love it. You are one of my heros in my life. I love how you were so giving you drove to pick up your friends at prairie view. If you were selfish you might be here now, but that's not who you are. you are the most giving guy I know. I miss you sooo much. Haha I'm laughin at the memories of the training room we have. wow good times. you were such a man after god's own heart and I loved that. Haha You drove me home one day and exposed me to "black" music and I still remember that drive. It was weird but hilarious. good times. I know you're watching over us in heaven and I'm so excited to see you again!! I know you're parents are too. they are great by the way. I saw them the week after spring break and they are doing so well. Dudeeee Chris is HUGE!! He's looking more and more like you, it's scary, but really neat. He's become a nice young man. Haha. Him, Abs and Kimmie are still friends. Since Kindergarden, I think? Crazy huh!! :) Your parents still own the house, just renting it right now. I hope they move back one day!!! College Station is still lame, and such. Mr. Fox left after I graduated, yes I graduated, weird! I know. they are building our 2nd high school as we speak,weiiiird!! College Station has changed so much in 2.9 years. You wouldn't recognize it probably!! Just thought I'd update you. I love yoU!! Miss you!! Kassie :)

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Life is Precious!

This essay was the essay I submitted to Texas A&M for my admission. It's about when Ed died. This essay is one of my favorite pieces of work and I love it.

:)

Life After Death


Silence. Shock. Disbelief. Tears. Maroon and white. Then abruptly, red and blue flashing lights. Sirens. Those were the sights and sounds of September 15, 2006, at Tigerland Stadium. I became an entirely different person on that unforgettable night.

The biggest game in Texas high school football was being played between the A&M Consolidated High School Tigers and the Austin Westlake Chaparrals on September 15th. Both teams were state-ranked in the top ten, and both were considered football powerhouses in the state. The first quarter went extremely well; we scored first. Then Westlake scored, which made it 7-7 at the end of the first quarter. Regrettably, fourteen points are all that would ever be scored in that match-up. The clock stopped with 10 minutes and 25 seconds left in the second quarter. Matt Nader, an offensive lineman from Westlake, ran off the field after a play and collapsed. I stood in awe, and the stands fell silent when after a few minutes, Matt did not get up. By this time both teams were on the field huddling with each other, praying for Matt’s health. No one knew what was happening. As an athletic trainer, I wanted to know what was going on as well and what they were doing to him. I could not find out because all the medical staff was on their sideline. Word got around that an Automated External Defibrillator saved his life. Once the paramedics got Matt’s heart beating again, he was taken to a local hospital where parents from both schools went to offer their prayers. Once the ambulance left, superintendents and head coaches from both schools met at midfield and decided to cancel the game. I thought to myself, “Ok, that is nice of them; I get to go home early.” Unfortunately, that was not the case; in fact the worst was yet to come.

One of my friends in the stands motioned for me to go toward her. Of course I went, figuring she was asking me about Matt’s condition. The conversation that followed is still vivid in my mind:

“Kassie, did you hear about Ed?”

“No, what about him?”

“He died earlier today in a car wreck on Highway 6.”

“I’ve had enough bad news today; stop joking.” I said with dismay.

“No really, he died; it’s been going around the stands.” She assured me it was true.

I fell silent as Jackie asked me if I was going to be okay. I stood in front of her with consternation. I did not want to believe that my neighbor, my good friend, and one of the guys I helped out during football season was dead. Looking over to the field house, I saw the boys in a huddle and our head coach, Coach Slaughter, talking to them, giving them the terrible news. Heading toward the field house, I saw my best friend’s mom. I questioned the news and asked her why this would happen. She consoled me and reassured me that everything happens for a reason. I was astonished because I never thought something like this, losing a beloved friend and student, would happen to me or to our community. A precious life was taken from a loving family, a loving team, and loving friends. Everyone that knew Ed adored him and loved him. He was a hard-worker and dedicated to everything he did. Ed was the type of guy who befriended everyone. Ed showed new students around school for the counselor’s office. Ed welcomed them into Consol with his friendly smile and laid-back attitude. Hard-working is often used to describe Ed, because that is exactly what he was. Everything Ed did, he did with a smile and his whole heart. Ed was just an overall great guy.

When I found my mom, I started hugging her and told her that I could not believe this was happening. I said I had to go see Mr. and Mrs. King, to offer my condolences. After I hugged my best friend, her mom, and some of the football players, I went with my family to the King’s home. I gave Mr. King a huge hug, and I saw the face of a strong man. He did not shed a tear, but instead he acted as Mrs. King’s rock and foundation. After giving him a hug, I went to Mrs. King’s room. She was distraught and disoriented. She knew who I was, but I could tell she still did not believe that her son had died. The house filled up with people coming over to give their condolences, and I was touched by the fact that so many people went to see Ed’s family.

This outpouring of love to the Kings made me realize how precious life is and that many people take it for granted. No longer did I want to take my life for granted, but Ed’s death taught me to live it to the fullest. The moment I found out Ed died, a feeling rushed over me of how precious life is. I wanted to take my time on Earth as a gift and understand that tomorrow is not promised. Ed’s death showed me how I need to live out my life. The events of September 15, 2006, changed who I was and made me who I am today.



I miss you Ed. Love you so much. Can't wait to see you! :)

Love you!

Kassie

5 Things to Be Happy About Today:

reading a magazine at the store so you don't have to buy it. babysitting. bonfires. scarves. procrastinating.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Frustraaaaated

Hi world.

It's Wednesday! Made it through one week of summer school....

I'm still frustrated with so much.

I want Katie to come down so I can have a true friend. I am so frustrated with life.

I hate this whole friend issue that's going on.

Urg.


Tuesday, June 9, 2009

whatever

I'm frustrated, upset, and hurt.

I hate when I am not good enough to hang out with people, but once I introduce them to someone they'll hang out with me. Or they'll chose to just hang out with that person. I'm sick and tired of it. It frustrates me so much. Maybe they don't understand why I get upset, but I think I have every right to.

So I miss Jake. I miss talking to him 3 hours a night, I miss him caring. I know he's like in love with another girl, but I just miss him. Or maybe I miss the idea of having someone care.

A friend of mine always has a ton of guys who like her and want to talk and hang out with her, yet I have NONE of that. Yes, I get jealous but shit it gets old. She calls me out on shit, and sometimes I just wanna be whatever. 

I'm so frustrated and upset!

Blargh.

night.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Manic Monday

It's just another Manic Monday..

In class right now. Then going to get food, drop Caitlin off, go shower and change, job interview at 3 then pool!!!! WHEW!

I've been thinking a lot lately about conformity. We all do it, but why? We don't wanna be the odd ball or we just want someone to like us for being like them? What is the point? Why can't we all just do our own thing? Comformity happens every day. For example: walk on the campus of A&M or Blinn you'll see girls in running shorts, a t-shirt and sperry's. Like yes it may be comfortable, but seriously? everyone? I started wearing sperry's my sophomore year in HS before they were "cool." Just saying haha. I conform sometimes too, and I get annoyed with myself. Sometimes I just stop and realize that it's not what I need to do. The Lord doesn't want us to conform so we shouldn't.

Oh and my job interview? Yeah the girl was sick and didn't have anyone call me...I drove all the way out there to get told I couldn't interview, so frustrating.

Just my rambling thoughts. 

Love you!

Kassie

5 Things to be happy about today:
Unexpected phone calls from friends
the word legit
rubber bands
paper clips
a new pen

Saturday, June 6, 2009

What a day.

Last night I went to the Hall and saw Granger Smith...he's one of my favorite artists!! I love him!

It was super fun..Met up with some guys from my IMPACT and then went to Antonio's!! :) Delicious!!!!

Woke up at 2PM today. Washed some clothes, then went to the pooL!! I fell asleep lol.

Ummm had home grilled burgers...amazing!!

about to watch He's Just Not That Into You!!

have a good Sunday..

Kassie =)

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Life is precious

I haven't watched this video in forever, but each time I watch it I cry and am reminded how precious life is. I am so blessed.

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=th6Njr-qkq0


Sure, I complain and whine about my life. But my life is amazing compared to some people. I am so blessed. I have a loving family, loving friends and most importantly a loving GOD. 

Elliot had 99 days to live, I've had way more than that but I don't know my story. Elliot touched the life of many people. I want to do that. I want to live a life pleasing to the Lord.

God has put me through some tough situations in the last few months. I lost a guy that I still to this day care about. And always will. He's one of my constant reminders of why I want to get my life on track, but also because I want to live for the one person who died for me.

I have been unwise, unfaithful, unwilling, unteachable, unreachable, unmerciful, unrighteous, undesirable, unbroken, uneasy, unqualified but I have NEVER been unloved. 

God is so good. 

I love you.

Yours and His,
Kassie

Wednesday....

First day of summer school. Me and Caitlin are taking English together but I go and sit with her for her Poli Sci 207 class with my favorite teacher ever, Mr. Shomaker. He's the best prof I've EVER had.

English is going to be hard, but interesting. Basically we have to research and argument a topic. Argue both sides to the conflict at hand. Well I already have a greattt idea and I'm super stoked about it. I'm gonna debate whether Division One football should have a Playoff system or the BCS is good like it is. It's gonna be hard to argue for the BCS but I think it will be fun. I love sports so this is something that intersts me. My teacher for English is really cool, he gave us his cell number. haha I was like okay, cool. haha. He's young and hilarious. I'm excited about this class.

I need a job...really bad. I'm praying the bus driver thing works out, or Rudy's lets me backk! We shall see.

Went to the Rec last night with church and ran into one of my great friends there, Karla Jain. I met her campaigning and I love her! She recently went to Uganda and so I hadn't seen/talked to her since like beginning of May. Love running into people! I was super tired last night and went to bed early, but I'm still tired. This school thing is going to kick my butt.

I neeeed a job. I'm so stressed. I'm on Jobs for Aggies EVERYDAY. Blargh!

Ummm...I don't know what else to say.

Hope you are having a great day.

Yours and His,
Kassie

5 things to be happy about today:
-the last cookie
-when you burn your mouth because you're so eager to eat the food in front of you
-mechanical pencils
-feeling like you hit every light green when you're driving
-3 hole hole-punches

Monday, June 1, 2009

I'm 19.5

June 1st is my half birthday making me now, 19 and one half. Kind of cool, but kind of lame because my parents treat me like I'm 5. Like I was supposed to be home tonight at midnight, and I came at one and I know my mom's gonna throw a fit. Like seriously, I haven't seen any of my friends in a week and we were all catching up. I'm def. not in HS anymore. So frustrating, the one night I wanna go out, and hang out, I'm late. Whatever. 

I decided to take a summer school class because I can't find a job, might as well do something productive. I'm gonna take English with Caitlin, and then just sit in on Mr. Shoemaker's class since we'll be carpooling. I love government, I'm such a nerd.

So I'm feeling a lot less stressed about some things, but the whole parents thing is about to drive me like freakin' crazy. I swear.

Talked to Gary, my old GM at Rudy's today begging him and making him feel bad for me so I can come back. We'll see how that goes, I'm gonna go talk to Jarrad about why I quit and hopefully win him over! haha.

My iPhone will NOT stay charged. While, yes I may be on it 24/7 I feel like after one phone call it's dying. URGH!

Well....Monday is over, now on to Tuesday. My last day before school. Oh the joys of college sometimes.

5 things to be Happy about:
-math
-english
-the last cookie
-the first and last days of school
-rambling

Love you:)

Yours and His,
Kassie